yeahz...end of my paper todae..muahhaa...somehow 102 din appear to be as chui as i would thought...and i went shopping for my models too..hehe...slowly i shall load this blog with all my models...can't wait to start work on them sia...the moment i reached hall...i open up the pack and started spraying some of the parts...hehe...it does help to dress up my darlings with a nice coat of fresh paint...ahhaa..akatsuki and destiny...muackss...oh ppl...dun buy these 2 for mi plzz....DUN BUY DESTINY AND AKATSUKI....
had a dinner at secret recipe with yp n meow too....good dinner... ya la..threesome..jealous rite? had this chicken cordan bleu there...nopez..no link to the liquor...but it taste quite nice ba...quite filling too... den shopped abit and come back..though itz brief...but oh well...it feels good to be unloaded from the burden of examz...muahhaa...i feel lighter already...to all those who still got paper...ORBI...lol..no la..i not tt mean..haa...good luck to all of you too eh..endure endure endure...ending soon le..muahhaa..
ah..i wanna go ktv...plz plz plz...letz go somedae too eh..hehez

am feeling nothing but happiness tonite...i love u all~

"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

there's a meaning in every song...go figure...

itz 8.12 in the morning...and i have no idea why am i doing up so early...i dun have a paper later...and i slept late yest...so basically, i had only like 4 hrs of sleep due to the barca/milan match yesterdae...i aint a soccer fan...but my room is constantly used as a place to watch soccer..i'm fine with that..cuz i can still sleep on if i decided to nonetheless...but i oso duno why i'm up so early in the morning still...mabbe itz the flu...mabbe itz the hunger... or simply mabbe itz juz the dream that woke me and refuses to let me sleep any longer....

could sense quite a bit of negativity from the blogs of a couple of my frenz... everyone having their fair share of troubles...and examz are juz like the least worrisome for them... to all of you having difficult times, hang on...it'll all work itself out if you stay strong...do not falter as you defintely have a hand that will push u on...though not veri strong, but i guess it stills can do the job...

and to sheepie...happy birthdae...i gotten ur hint from ur b'dae list...heh...will execute it after my paper tml...and ppl with paper todae...good luck and all da best...

and that juz remind mi...my paper tml..i am screwed...i have no idea wat accounting 2 is talking about...all the costing n management stuffz...i am so dead... perhaps any of you kind souls can donate more of ur accounting vibes or genes to me, i might juz make it thru tml...furthermore paper is at 230 tml...late start and late end...totalli defy my belief of "die early, reincarnate early"...

at least my bro has decided to sponsor me one gundam too...so most prob will be getting them tml also..i'll buy the Destiny Gundam and Akatsuki....juz gotta wait til tml... [plz dun get them for me...lol...]

陈奕迅-兄妹
作曲:徐伟贤填词:林夕

对我好对我好好到无路可退
可是我也很想有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪于是那么迂回

一时进一时退保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我好惭愧
享受被爱滋味却不让你想入非非

就让我们虚伪
有感情别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不是慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美

眼看你看著我看得那么暧昧
被爱爱人原来一样可悲
为甚么竟然防备别人给我献媚

不能推不能要要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经爱过谁
我所要的她不给好像小偷一样卑微

enuf said...

ahh..juz had a rather good break...went home for the weekend...had some good old home cook food...mum's sze chuan soup is still da best...haa...mabbe not to others ba...but oh well...juz love her cooking..ahaa...itz kinda good to be back at home againz lor...went home to...ermm...not study but watch anime, zzzz, and tv...lol...totalli feel like non examz dae eh..aha.. am feeling so much betta at home oso...haa...less moody...mope around less...geez..the power of home...lol..chased away all the homesickness tt i din know i can experience...
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ah...and i'm juz 12 hrs away from my 214 paper now...have totalli no idea wat i'm studying..everything is like so crappable...plus the paper oni 33%...geez...low on motivation wor...luckily itz open book...so mabbe can juz managed on fine... aiks...no point thinking...shall believe in wat the ancient sae...the boat will be straight when it comes to a bridge head... juz looking forward to fri...finished off the acc2 paper ( mabbe finished off by it..but i'll die fighting)... den go have a nice good dinner, den will go buy my akatsuki gundam ( so ppl...dun buy this..cuz i will buy it myself...akatsuki is the golden one btw..lol..so scared i will get repeated gundams...) and i sound as if confirm ppl will buy for mi lidat...ahh..but hope is free..haha...

ah...den was watching gundam at home...it kinda inspired me with wat one of the characters sae....
" itz oni because of yesterdae that we will have tomorrow"

and ah...tt sounds so true eh....wat we will become are made up of our past experience...itz all those tt shape who we are....therefore...thanx to everyone who made tiny ripples in my life... even though i wun remember ur name now...but there will still be memories of u all in my life... ermm...nonono...i not writing will oso la...not yet not yet.... hehz...

finalli..to all the fighters taking on killer papers this week...have a good hunt !

have u ever wondered how ur life is going to turn out in future? or wonder abt wat destiny have in store for u....sometimes i do...sometimes i would dream of a future (provided i have one) with a wife, couple of kids, and wonder how they will turn out to be... i wonder how they will look like (preferably big eyes...unlike mine)... but somehow...these thoughts juz distressed me... all those future looks highly unprobable...

here i am, about to approach the 23 yr of my existance on this world and i look back...boy...was i stun by wat i saw....i see...i see....absolutely nothing... the past 20 yrs....i do not have much significant contribution...some of you have have excellent eca records, excellent grades...become scholars or watsoeva.... i juz dun... somehow such achievements lead mi to think tt...am success realli judge by those stuffz alone?? so wat if i obtain frickin 20,000 distinctions in all my results.... so wat if i'm the chairman of this society or club...does tt means i've achieved something?? i guess achievement depends on how ppl view the things tt are impt...i guess...but more likely than not...it has become wat society see as impt to a person to determine a person success... geez..tt's a sucky thot....i can't determine my own future n success..wtf...

but yeah...fame, fortune, reputation....i guess they aint impt to mi..i'll oni walk this earth a short while...and no one will remember me when i'm gone... man...another sucky thought...if i ever have any decesdent, by the 3rd or 4th generation...i'm sure i will be juz another name on a stone tablet....pui~ and i frickin work my guts off to be juz a name on a damn stone tablet....damn it....
i can frickin carve my name in a stone tablet in 10 mins...much less wait for my entire life to do so...argh... man oh man...wat a lousy life...

sorriez if i sounded whiny again...though i had a good dae...i realli do... had a hearty breakfast, went for examz, watch a movie (take the lead, itz nice...u all shuld catch it too), had a nice dinner..and a first time out of ntu in like 2 weeks( though itz oni JP), and not to mention the great company for the movie n dinner (as alwaes :P)...afterall, i shouldnt be whining now ritE? itz the effect of the tequilla....i guess it is..aha...alcohol makes me think...and think of depressing things...pui~ but oh well..i'm a sadist in life...juz absolutely love torturing my brain with all the negativities... perhaps mabbe itz this...i could remain the person tt i wanna be... juz someone who can still see light in terms of darkness ( ya,..i got astigmatism, so can see the light....) ** pish**

but oh well...life juz sux when itz not ur own....
to end off with a quote from the movie..."Do you like ***? Den you are meant for it! " (fill in the *** with anything u like,...need not be 3 letters...duh >.<" )

ah..in accordance with my previous blog...i missed something out..the shops where u all can get the stuffz can be locate suntec city level 4...shop's name hobby point...haha...

yupz..for todae...was showering juz now....den suddenly a thot came back to mind...feel like wearing JC uniform againz..lol... somehow miss wearing uniform..nonono...not army uniform...but sch uniform..miss my sajc daes...one of these daes shall dig it out n wear it around..haa... kinda miss the stuffz i do during my jc times....take neoprint...wear uniform...eat the ikea hotdogs...hahaa.....muz do it soon...lol...
may everyone enjoy ur examz...haaa

Of birthday, and exams

well....had one paper in the afternoon..doubt tt i will get the A that i hope...oh well...let's not dwell on it... had a rather good supper juz now..had mutton bryani...quite nice n spicy...plus a cup of hot teh..haa...hot teh is something tt rejuvenates me nowadaes...ah...and was browsing through some online gundam sites...and decided that i wanna all these gundams...
nonono...these are not hints....itz demand!! lol.... my birthdae juz round the corner le....well...if u know how to "make ppl" aka zuo ren...take a look eh... shall post my birthdae wishes now too ba....

looking thru all these gundams has juz re-ignited my passion in modelling once againz...once i got my compressor...it'll be time for me to go into modelling all the new gundam i will be getting ( i am getting some rite??) dun run away from me this time round....

1. One spearmax compressor for airbrush ---- $180 bucks [ nah...dun think u all shuld get this for me...though i confirm will marry those that do...guys excluded]

2. Braun Buffel wallet ---- $??? [ guess this pressie would be more suitable ba...something i would need and it's tangible]

3. Bandai Perfect Grade Strike Gundam X-105 (scale: 1/60) ---- $200 [ erm...ya...this is my dream gundam...but i guess i gotta continue dreaming...check out the pics man...gotten it off dannychoo.com....this is juz so cool....awww....]



4. Bandai HG Gundam Seed models (scale: 1/144) -----$ 20 ~ $40 [these are the models that have caught my eyes...affordable too....pictures included so won't go wrong during purchases]

a. Destiny Gundam



b. Strike Freedom (remember, it's Strike Freedom...cuz got one model juz Freedom only)



c. Infinite Justice (likewise, it's Infinite Justice, not just Justice)



d. Shirainui Akatsuki ( most ex of the lot..$40..cuz it's GOLD PLATED!!!)

hmm...went to a horoscope site...and entered in my birth time...and voila~ here's the results...somehow it looks quite true...u will understand why i alwaes sae i looking for a wife n not a gf..muahhaha...ya..i know...i need a gf first den can have wife..tt's wat mani of u have said to mi....but oh well...ancient times matchmaking seems good...but...NOooooo~

Ascendant in Scorpio
With this position, you are likely to be quite secretive about your emotions at first.
You reserve the disclosure of your true feelings for those who are close to you, those whom you can trust with the full intensity of your emotions. Once involved with a lover, your physical passions are very strong.

Sun in Taurus
You are a meat-and-potatoes person when it comes to loving, possessing both consistency and endurance.
You are very good-hearted and generous with your lover and will go to any length to lavish favors on your partner. In return, you expect great loyalty and consistency more than physical generosity, although you do prefer a physically demonstrative partner.

Sun in the Sixth House
For your most successful sexual development, a love affair should have a definite framework. Thus you are better off with one steady partner than trying to play the field. Your strength in personal affairs is your ability to build a well-knit, solid relationship that endures and continues to thrive year after year.
Friendship with a lover is very important to you, and without it the most passionate night will seem somehow empty.

Moon in Capricorn
You are not one to rush into a relationship, but you don't usually back off from one, either.
What you do want is a partner who is basically committed to you, so you know you are working with something real and lasting.

haha...3rd post for the dae..now itz 4.43 am...haha...been messing ard with fotoshop for the past hr or so...editing some of my own fotos..aha....let u all take a peek ba...







<==the original image...yeah...veri act seh..yaya...i know..wateva....











<== the portrait version...in black n white...mabbe can use on my funeral instead of usual foto..somehow looks not bad lidat..













<==after massive editing...kinda look
like chucky?? ==>
except with black hair n specs n shallower scars...muahahhaa

2nd update for the nite...juz stumble over this song..sung by the campus superstars one...original artist is sun yanzi..haa...veri happy n nice...lol...woohooo...may all days be like this...

第一天

下过雨的
夏天傍晚
我都会期待
唱歌的蝉嘿
把星星都吵醒
月光晒了很凉快
就是这样回忆起来
第一次告白(初次告白)
尴尬的我看
爱装得很哲学的你其实
很可爱
你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我说我懂了会不会太快
未来第一天要展开
第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂

你很搞笑你很奇怪
你头发很乱
有的时候
你突会为我的事情
变得很勇敢
这么说来很不单纯
你陪我看海
海那么蓝
我又好像
不应该把你想得有点坏
坏的是我发现不知不觉
不见到你不是很习惯
你的眼神里好像也期待
期待不一样的未来
第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂

蓝色的海(阿信:蓝色的海)
海上的云(飞:海上的云)
云的那端(阿信:云的那端)
不转弯(飞:不转弯)
到未来(阿信:到未来)

你说活在明天活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我说我懂了会不会太快
未来第一天要展开

第一天我存在
第一次呼吸畅快
站在地上的脚踝
因为你而有真实感
第一天我存在
第一次能飞起来
爱是腾空的魔幻
第一天的纯真色彩
它总是永远那么灿烂
永远那么灿烂
永远那么灿烂
first day first day
first day first day
first day
today everyday first day

Updates

Exams are just round the corner...2 more daes...sianz...though tried studying hard..but still feel kinda ill prepared..duh...sianz...i think my aa102 gonna kill me...haizz... damn damn damn... kinda sianz..argh...








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mmm....have u ppl ever encountered situation in which ppl oni find u for help? as in reali like the 无事不登三宝殿.....some ppl i guess are juz that mercenary... ppl on my msn list that i never chatted for thousands of years would juz msg mi a hi and ask abt life...but inevitably, such ppl are juz asking for favours from me in the end....being me...i dun reject...but deep down...i realli hate such a thing...of course i dun mind helping ppl every now and then...but if u oni think of me when u need help, sorriez...plz F**K OFF.... i'm not a frickin tool...plz do not think that if i help u once... i can't reject u....rejecting u is my frickin right!!

mabbe tt's why i've come to like living around in my hall with my gang of ppl...we help each other out lots..no gratitude needed... and the reason behind it is simple...cuz we are frenz...helping frens dun require gratitude...at least not on their part...but for ppl who help mi when i'm down and out...thanx for being there for mi....i will remember..

and here's a appreciation notice...thanx yp for the flu medicine.... guess itz the sweetest flu medicine tt i'll ever eat...not tt i wanna eat lotsa those...ahah...

Currently playing: "heaven's missing an angel"

Just like heaven

itz now 5am on a wed morning...juz finish watching just like heaven...the one with the guy and reese witherspoon...yeahz...itz the wrong time for movies now that examz are juz round the corner...but for the nite..i juz can't seem to focus on any books related stuffz... juz needed a outlet for my brain to chill out itself...

the movie gimme kinda some thoughts...have any one of you ever think about the chance that u might wake up and all of a sudden, have no recollection of how the day or your past life might be?? wat would you do?? ppl are alwaes busying themselves with work, mabbe currently it would be examz...but have anyone spare a thought tt if they would wake up the next dae and suddenly juz lost their memory of wat had happened to them, forget about their frenz and family...wat would be be the last impt thing that would really matter to them? would it realli be mugging til like there's no tml??

wat would i do in such a case?? honestly...even me myself dunno the answer...perhaps all i could do would be telling my family how much i cherished them around me even though i dun realli often look like that to others...but i realli appreciate it...and also mabbe to frenz tt seemly seems to think that i do not care when i simply do.... perhaps itz juz the way we asians are..more inert with our feelings and fear of letting ppl know wat we truly think...we juz simply dun dare to tell ppl we love them cuz of fear of them scorning us, we simply juz dun dare to tell others that wat we realli think cuz we fear to be different... perhaps..being an asian is not tt great afterall...

even we know abt the existance of such fears...will we faced it and tell our family and frenz tt i cherished them? nah...i dun think i will...i'm a typical chinese kinda guy and talk is cheap... rather than tell them i love and cherished them...i rather be there for them always... help them out when they are down, cheer them on when they are blue...pui~ i sound so wei da...muahhahaa...nah..i'm not..i'm juz a simpleton that is afraid of not being able to say goodbye...

"What if I can't even say goodbye? What if I'm no longer there?"


okiez..enuf rubbish..time to zzz..before i start having imaginary frenz...
to all: good luck for examz!

HEAVEN'S MISSING AN ANGEL (98 Degrees)

I hope the Man upstairs
Isn't mad at me
'Cause I have one of His angels
And she's here with me
When I see her precious smile
And she spreads her wings
It takes me to a place where love
Meets eternity

Oh, no
I'm not letting go
I don't want to be alone
In this crazy world
Oh, Lord
How I love her so
And I'll sacrifice it all to have her
In my life

(Chorus:)
I found my girl
I'll tell the world
That Heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, Heaven is missing an angel

Not a day goes by
That I don't thank God for you
He blessed me with my angel
Though I don't deserve you
Until I found you, girl
Lonely was my best friend
Now that you are in my life
I am stronger within
I can't wait to kiss my angel
Late at night
And watch her go to sleep
Until I see her rise

(Repeat chorus)

All that I do is for you
Me without you, girl, just won't do
Oh, no
Your love's all I want to know
Angel, don't you ever go
Life won't be the same without you

(Repeat chorus

Artist Daniel Bedingfield
Album Maid in Manhattan
Song If You're Not The One

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

mmm....somehow this songs touched me alot..perhaps itz cuz wat i wanna sae ba...

Krav
26 years of sailing
Nocturnal and alcoholic
Small eyes, wrong perceptions
Taurus monkey man

Kravings, Otaku, Hermit
Anecdotal, metaphorical, illogical
Never trusting, suspecting
Gundams-lover
Yearning, loathing
U and only u

Living freely,
Ostentatious, Obnoxious,
Venturing, learning
Enduring storms
Sailing the high seas,

Yours truly
Only,
Undyingly










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