oni 1 word can sum up my last 3 dae..lethargic... work has been abit more significant...attended 2 meetings in the last 3 daes... was quite informative...but apart from that...the rest still same...fri got board meeting though..i shall just be wat i am best...be the invisible man...

mon went back to had my FOC meeting too..managed to see mui ngee for a while just to take the book "5 ppl u'll meet in heaven"... thanks mui~.. and managed to finish the book that veri nite...

tues..upon reaching home from work..straight away went for a jog... after that work out with my dumb bells abit...ended up too pooped and fell asleep at 10 plus...

wed..starting to feel sickly.. think the problem in office is, as long as one person get sick...it'll spread due to the closeness of office...sianz...nonono..dunwan fall sick..dunwan spoil my buffet plans on sat... falling sick at home is no fun oso...mom will start nagging n nagging...zzzz...

tml is subj reg dae...gotten half day off so as to go do subj reg...hope i get my timetable..though itz veri slack...2 dae week..

tired tired tired....

"seeing you would be a miracle to me"

had a good nite sleep...and now the weather is rainy...completed my game too...and decided against going to jp on sun to cut hair cuz veri crowded...now totalli left nothing to do..aha...realise tt lifehouse songs not bad too...mmmm...i'm becoming more ang moh liao...chamz...read books n listen ang moh songs...i wonder if tt's good or bad...

phone has been silent for 2 daes le...haa...slowly getting used to this isolation...it feels good to be left alone sometimes...hahaa....no need report to anyone, no need to entertain anyone... i guess itz time for more sleep....tml will be another start of the working week...and subj registration too...geez...

ah..to pw, Happy b'dae to ya!!! welcome to the eligible to watch RA club...muahaha

"Life is not how you live it, it's how others live in your life.."

another post of songs that gotten my attention... oh...pandora rox...

THE HARDEST THING ( 98 degrees)

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you

Ever the same (Rob Thomas)
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

Invisible Man (98 degrees)

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, you don't see me baby

I see you all the time baby
Huh, the way you look at him
I wish it was me, sweetheart
Boy, I wish it was me
But I guess...

This I Swear (Nick Lachey)

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

Where were you when I cry
You kept yourself high & dry.
Looking aroung in the dark
Searching for you, but no such luck.
When skies turn to grey
You simply wasn't there.

Friends they are, I'm not
Just someone conveniently ignored.
I believed in your goodness
You abused my kindness.
I'm around when you need me
When hell comes you left me be.

I thought I understood
But I'm just a piece of wood.
Drifting aimlessl in the sea
Floating away from you and he.
From now on we'll always be apart
But to you, I had given
a big piece of my heart.

finalli...after much tinkering...much experimenting...much trial and error n a million curses... my new cave's up...

came up with a new dark n bloody look..with a sillouhette of kenshin walking alone...ahah...feels so much like me... gonna try putting in music etc...ahha...wait til more...

ah..and the week is finalli over...3rd week of PA gone.... 7 more to survive... haizz....

i feel sick...sick of work..den physically also quite sick... think my throat gonna be sore soon..and tt's the prelude to a damn bad bout of flu, cough and fever...thank goodness itz thursdae...tml will be the last work dae to the week...phew...

been quite involved in my office stuffz these few daes...next week still gotta go board meeting with the big shots..sure end late one..haizz... underpaid but still gotta work hard...ah well..i guess by the end of my PA, no one will qie mi in knowledge regarding web2.0, SaaS, SOA, ERP, wateva yadda yadda... for those tt dunno all these acronyms, there are all IT related business stuffz..zzzz...every day of my life been researching on all these stuffz and itz potential..interesting enuf i guess.. but ah well..draining still...

am looking forward to meeting up with karena n co soon..been ages since we last met...almost 1 yr plus liao...muz have a good chat then...

itz amazing how mood can be altered in a matter of seconds...one second it was flying high...the other second it can crashed down onto the ground... things ppl do affect others, whether u see it notz or realize it...but unknowingly..simple simple stuffz can hurt ppl who do not think it is tt simple... i guess i juz gottta live with it...

"there are no easy way outs...live it and endure it...or juz give it up..."

kinda like a pretty bad dae...too much negativity has influence on me... lotsa rubbish happened to ppl around me...and honestly...i hate such things..argh.... sometimes itz so difficult to look happy on the outside and contained a raging bull inside...hypocritical?? yes...but it does takes self control not to explode as and when u feel like it... i feel juz torned up, chewed on and spat upon.... this is realli a sucky feeling...

got involved with a new project @ work too... this time round is more IT based...quite interesting and got a feeling i'll learn alot... gotta work harder this time round...
damn...it's getting tiring to stay awake too... somehow..i seem to lose the purpose of living this le... to everyone feeling damn f**ked up...dun worry...you're not alone...

"live and let live? die and be dead! "

lousy sunday...din managed to sleep much...read my book til 5 plus...until my mom screamed at me then i go sleep... woke at 10 plus...but somehow..din feel tired also...plaed my games til lunch...lunch was the usual...bak chor mee...somehow lunch oni revolve 3 kind of food...prawn noodles(fri), chicken rice(sat), bak chor mee(sun)....it's already a routine liao...

whole dae has been taking things slow..nice n relaxing... tt's how sunday should be... but then..after sunday is monday.and tt's office day again..one week of rubbish gonna start againz...zzzz...sianz....been exploring the songs in my house com...alot of songs i never hear before one...esp the ang moh song...din know i had tt many i din know abt..ahhaa

to everyone...good day...good bye

**stabs**
**falls over..bleed...**

Currently listening: "wat's left of me" by Nick Lachey
previously listening: "can't take that from me" by Mariah Carey
Going to listen: "goodbye my lover" by James Blunt

somehow...sometimes...songs speaks alot more than words alone can....

---Crazy (KC and Jojo) ---
I can't live
Thinkin' about this crazy day
I lose sleep
Just to daydream about you baby

---Quando quando quando (Michael Buble) ---
Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

---If you're not the one (Daniel Beddingfield) ---
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And Im prayin you’re the one I build my home with

--- November rain (Guns and Roses) ---
Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

---Something stupid (Robbie William) ---
I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you


"spineless and gutless....less than a worm...."

i've been reading alot...ahah...tadaa...i'm sure u all shocked rite...the uncle-like chao ah beng actualli reads....haha...used to be a avid reader...and i mean realli used to...way back before i enter chinese high...it robbed me of the joys n thrills of holding a good story book in my hands and emersing myself in the world told by them....ah..the joys of reading...

last week juz went to library to borrow a couple of books...
here's wat i finished reading...considering it took mi oni 6 daes to finish reading...

CSI Miami: Heatwave
Be My Enemy: Fuck it..this is not a book for soldiers
Tom Clancy's No Remorse
Da vinci Code

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2nd week of PA has ended..took the fri off to do my deferment..so ma fan...in the end muz wait for it to send to my house...zzzz..waste of time.... ah well...life is like this....

"the higher the expectations...expect greater disappointments"

this is the song that has gotten me up and dancing around...simply love it!

Quando Quando Quando
Michael Buble feat. Nelly Futardo

Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love devine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my lover tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

something my PA mates came up with...haha...so veri interesting!!

been craving for alot of things since this week...wanting the week to end...wanting to go out with fren...wanting to drink...wanting to get drunk... so mani things..so little time...or rather..so little energy..haizzz...

oh well...i love the buble edition of quando quando quando...damn nice esp with nelly futardo...ahhaa...loving it!

sorriez for the lack of updates... been realli kinda bz...went down town yest to watch poseidon n had a dinner... poseidon was not bad...nice show to keep u at the edge of ur seat injected with a bit of humour...if u love watching ppl being burnt by flashfire, swept away by torrential floods of water, fall down from great heights...yupz..this the show for u... dinner was at ajisen...first time there...food not that bad...at least edible...ah well...itz alwaes abt the company and not the food...good food are just bonus...

todae...mothers' day...my mom became like a spoilt recorder....repeat n repeat n repeat non stop...ie: nag n nag.... zzz...nagging seems to make her happy...no wonder itz a happy mothers' day for her...but sad dae for mi...kena nag n nag non stop...in the end din realli go out celebrate... cuz everywhere was crowded...juz had some simple dabao chai fan n tt's it.... tml gonna go down town to talk with some trade officer from the JCCI...hope i dun botch it up....

hmmm...this morning was also talking to a fren regarding some prob...somehow we managed to came to a conclusion about how she should go on from now on...all the best to u ba... and now...there is oni one more prob left....zzzzz....

"Sacrificing without ppl asking for it is a dumb ass thing to do... I'm dumb"

ah..pa finalli has some stuffz to do...reading up lotsa n lotsa...i dun think i read this much for examz oso...sibei sianz...haizzzz.....yest finalli went out to drink with the guys @ dbl o...went chiong...music was err....okiez i guess...it redeem itself towards the back...
but the crowd was...my god....bunta niku....haizzz.... so uninteresting... nothing significant happening...qing din made a big fool out of himself...wasted...haizzz....mabbe the chiong session can be more happening...but oh well...us guys juz gotta entertain each others...

perhaps it is a sin to think too much... when u think too much, u have a over realistic notion and start painting rosy picture of the future... but then...things wunt work out the way u wanted...not now...not ever... this sounds pessimistic...but i'm not...itz juz another sad fact of life... anything tt will go wrong will go wrong...and i do wonder....if it's such a wrong for me to...nm...forget abt it...

pa is quite busy..not realli busy..but time consuming..whole dae eaten up by it...zzzz....
a song tt i quite moved me this few daes....

What a difference a day made ---- Jamie Cullum

What a difference a day made, twenty four little hours
Brought the sun and the flowers where there use to be rain
My yesterday was blue dear
Today I'm a part of you dear
My lonely nights are through dear
Since you said you were mine
Oh, what a difference a day made
There's a rainbow before me
Skies above can't be stormy since that moment of bliss
That thrilling kiss
It's heaven when you find romance on your menu
What a difference a day made
And the difference is you, is you
My yesterday was blue dear
Still I'm a part of you dear
My lonely nights are through dear
Since you said you were mine
Oh, what a difference a day made
There's a rainbow before me
Skies above can't be stormy since that moment of bliss
That thrilling kiss
It's heaven when you find romance on your menu
What a difference a day made
And the difference is you, is you, is you

have left hall le...shifted back home...somehow, the moment i left hall, there's a myriad of emotions running thru me...somehow, itz like leaving a place with everybody to dwell in another place alone...(not realli alone but with my family la...) but somehow... it feels like kinda sad...not realli cuz i love my room so much that i'll missed it...but more of rather the ppl will still be around when i'm not... somehow...that's not a nice feeling to me... ahh...and it so happen that i'll grad one year earlier than all the "cbs" from 44...haizz...somehow...life will not be the same after that i guess...haizzz..

well..enuf of the sobbish shit...todae went to watch MI3...actualli itz the first time i watch MI series in the cinema...and wow...i realise the reason why MI3 gotten so many high reviews from ppl...itz nice and action packed...2hrs non stop action plus it does not juz emphasized on action alone...storyline was not bad... and mr ethan no longer the one man army from the previous eps...haha...team work rules!

"with you in my life, i'm truly satisfied.."

a song by gary cao...superwoman....

Early in the morning, I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑著的你
还能够　做些什麼代替我的歉意
总是望著我　小心翼翼顺著我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麼不懂你多寂寞 残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Ooh—Babe---

You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠著彼此　只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我
无论在什麼时候回头　都有你的笑容

是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最後一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权

(---Baby)是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心裏唯一的superwoman没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰烬

i guess insommia is contagious... can't sleep totalli yesternite... tried going to sleep at 3am...end up listening my mp3 to 4....tried adopting my most easily after meal sleeping position... nope..din work..after much tossing n turning, finalli manage to zzz at nearly 6...but damn...wake up at 7 plus when i supposed to be up at 9...forced myself to catch a few more winks before waking at 8 plus...ie: now... this sux... i have absolutely no idea why lidat too... mabbe some idea... but tt doesn't realli matter... it was a juz damn bad nite... haizz..let'z hope todae would be better...

SOMEDAY
By: Nickelback
From: www.nickelback.com

How the hell'd we wind up like this
And why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
But don't think it's too late

Nothing's wrong
Just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
I''m gonna make it alright
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that
Someday somehow
I'm gonna make it alright
But not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
That we could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror

Nothing's wrong
Just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
I''m gonna make it alright
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that
Someday somehow
I'm gonna make it alright
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that
I know you're wondering when

went movie...art of seduction lame n nice
dinner @ subway...healthy
blew nearly $200 on clothes for PA
ktv tml...

sometimes things juz dun end up the way u meant it to be...and things tt u reali wanna ppl to know dun come out no matter how hard u try...i wish i can juz shoot my mouth off and shoot myself after that...

well well..the long awaited pics update is here..haha.. here's some of my gundam models..





Akatsuki..the latest

God Gundam, my only Master Grade gundam







Freedom SD...cute hor...heh








one of my very old model...gundam Nataku...from the gundam wing series...had it since JC lor..haa...

ahh...finalli...birthdae is over...had a mini birthdae celebration juz now too...
thanx to cat, yp, ash, lp, kam, gordan, th, for the mini celebration..ahaha....
and the final update to those b'dae wishes....

henghowe
sern
shuping
jianfan
jianliang
yiwei
pravin
joleen

ahhaa...tt brings mi to a grand total of 32 b'dae wishes...heez... hurrah!~

haha...yay~ my 23rd almost ending le...and here are the updated list of ppl who wish mi happy birthdae...

zhiyong
jasmine
gan
jieying
siqi
gordan
yp
ah heng
cat
xiaojie
li yee
steph
hiangz
stuart
shuyi
kamz
alex
joleen

ah hah~ and that me brings to a grand total of 24 b'dae wishes on my 23rd b'dae~~! ..haha... thanx to all of ya who made it a point to remember eh..especialli ah heng n shuyi n hiangz...so long nvr hear from u all...was such a pleasant suprise to mi...hehez...

ahh...the clock has struck 12 and it is now the first of may... haizz...am another year older le....23 liao...so near but yet so far...19mins into my first year of being 23 and have already gotten a few b'dae wishes...

in order of timing, thanks to:
marcus
eunice
twin
ashley
tonghao
mui gnee

hope all my birthdae wishes can come true this yr but...at least i know i fulfilled 2 of my birthdae pressie wishlist...my akatsuki and destiny gundam...shall post the finish work soon....

"23 comes to every one only once..treasure this year like it is the last..."

Krav
26 years of sailing
Nocturnal and alcoholic
Small eyes, wrong perceptions
Taurus monkey man

Kravings, Otaku, Hermit
Anecdotal, metaphorical, illogical
Never trusting, suspecting
Gundams-lover
Yearning, loathing
U and only u

Living freely,
Ostentatious, Obnoxious,
Venturing, learning
Enduring storms
Sailing the high seas,

Yours truly
Only,
Undyingly










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