Friday, November 25, 2005
dreams...
DREAMS...梦had a when i was napping just now...it's such a sweet dream and yet..it's totally a dreams about the wrong stuff at the wrong time.. the vivid imagery of it all makes it seems so real, makes everything seems so reachable... but in fact...itz not.. somehow, dreamz are a self imagined actualization of the things that we can never have... and then...to dream of things that u know are unattainable...the feeling sucks totally... somehow, it fills u with a wierd sense of emptyness after u wake up... giving u the feeling of something that u could grab in ur hands but was forcefully taken away...haiz...why not juz lemme dreamz on eternally...or dun give me any dreams at all..i'm sick of all these le...Thoughts: Hopes are a wishes that you can be not responsible for..
10:45 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
truth..
i guess i'm a hateful person... i'm a superficial person...i'm a person who yearns the new and dislike the old... i'm just a person who duno how to sort my priorities..i'm selfish, fake and watever negative aspects of what a human can be...
perhaps...i guess tt's the true essence of a human..being self centred... sometimes..caring too much starts to become a burden... especially if u care about ppl that u value... how ppl see a person cannot be change...and somehow, itz so much easier to see the negativeness than the positiveness in a person... mistakes will glare at you rite in their face... and all the good things u have done juz disappear in ppl's memories...
well...i guess simple words do hurts...when u care too much... guess i'm just wrong to care...
11:09 AM
Friday, November 18, 2005
it is over....
hurrah..todae mark the end of examz...haa..but somehow...there's not much cause in celebrating it...not cuz i did badly in the examz..but more of the fact that it's oni a few of us that finish...my main clique all still having papers..sianz...that means no kTV, no buffet...at least not for the week ba...
been relaxing, playing games n listening to music...i still feel that stoning is the best way to relax... juz sit there blankly and stare into space...trying to fit myself into this chaotic world... and todae..i came to a realization...i realise that the only proof of a person existence does not really lies in photos he took, the families he had... rather, it lies within the memories of his friends... a person existance is only confirmed by others....and only if he is remembered or rather, can be remembered..he can den be confirmed to have exist in this world... gee...guess mabbe tt's why frenz are a priority to me ba... hahaa...well...shall find more mischief to get up to.... oh..wanna thanx ah lian for supper todae...hehz...
Footprints
We walk this world,
touching many hearts
frens or foes
are not far apart
but deep down inside
to prove who we are
we say wat we dun meant
and hurt others heart
life in solace
solitary and blue
frenz are for life
and always stae true
3:38 AM
Saturday, November 12, 2005
formulas of life..
kinda something for those who are feeling down...esp those who think tt they are in a bottomless pit... hope u all can see it... when the funny characters are out...go to [view>encoding> and select unicode]..den u shuld all be able to see it..
<<人生方程式>>人生的不愉快,十之八九.人生的快乐,只剩一二.失落是常事,得意因变得难得.忘却烦恼, 忘却忧愁,忘却困扰, 忘却哀伤.静下身, 定下心,朋友便会在身旁.无止境的逃避,无所谓的追寻,只带来无数的麻烦.从零开始,加了悲伤, 除于朋友,等于分担.减去烦恼, 乘了欢笑,等于快乐的生活.
2:10 AM
something my dear ah lian wrote for me....
~ Flawed ~
Love is blind
Where are the flaws
You cannot see?
They are in me
When we look again
Magnified by absence
Are the flaws
Flaws ever more visible
Love is ruthless
Flawed we are
We tried.
Fighting the battle
Against fate
Against the significant flaws
In the insignificant me.
1:04 AM
Friday, November 11, 2005
to all those who are dear...
itz the examz period..everyone feels sianz after the paper... the paper can be easy, the paper can be tough... i know..easy paper gives ppl confidence...gives ppl the feel good factor...and when faced with a tough paper... it gets u down..it makes u feel sianz.. but do remember...the judgement is oni out when the results are out... by letting a paper gets u down.. it'z totalli not worth it... there are far greater things in life.. so all those who are affected by papers...do cheer up...though i know itz much easier said than done.. but do note tt u are not alone in it... if u feel tt the paper is tough, others will feel the same way... so all is not lost... no matter wat... examz is a battle between controlling ur emotions and text... losing in emotional aspects oso result in a lost...so dun be affected... i dun seems to be making sense le..but juz know tt...wateva happen to all of u...i do give a damn...
11:23 PM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
what do you do when...
hmm...was thinking...wat do ppl do when they are left in isolation... tried something the other day..kinda interesting..you bury ur whole face underneath a damn thick blanket..den u open ur eyes n try to see in the absolute darkness...somehow it will gives you a feeling of total isolation... dun move around...juz concentrate on looking... and experience how it feels..
in the dark...you won't know whether ur eyes are open or close...it won't matter much..kinda ke lianz those blind ppl..can't see.... when ur sense of sight is taken away...somehow ppl feel very much vulnerable.. you fear wat u can't see...and u fear the unknown cause u cant see the unknown...
perhaps to escape from such feelings, ppl turn to liquor, turn to frenz, turn to doing things in a big group... rather than running away...why not embrace the isolation?? isolation gives u time to take a look at yourself n ur surrounding... gives u time to think abt things, gives yourself time to rest...perhaps hidding from all the ppl that bugs you..the places that dulls your.. the things that bores you... will give us a rare moment of inner peace....
peace out...
11:00 PM
Saturday, November 05, 2005
looking...
kinda long nvr blog...shall update it with this...
<<找寻>>挥不去的身影,忘不了的记忆,失去的也找不回.迷失了自己,遗忘了感情,找回也没意义.曾经完整的心,遭你夺取, 遭你丢弃,真心也已成垃圾.支离破碎的我,拼凑自己, 重整自己,怎么也不能忘记.找寻着你, 期待着你,能抹清我的过去.
2:14 AM
