itz fri...and i'm going to watch germany and argentina later...go go go!!! staying over at tonghao house later too...got chance to beat up ah qing...woooh~ happy fri....
seldom feel so high in a long while...muahahahaa...wooh~

"happiness comes in all shapes of sizes, though i rather it be you..."

sometimes ppl take things for granted, sometime ppl take ppl for granted...do u take others for granted?? if so...go fuck urself...

"the world may give up on you, but u shuld never give yourself up..."

sometimes ppl take things for granted, sometime ppl take ppl for granted...do u take others for granted?? if so...go fuck urself...

"the world may give up on you, but u shuld never give yourself up..."

woah..i think the weekend job has killed me...i'm feeling burnt out for the whole week... even though i've been steadily clearing stuffz to do...there seems to be no end to it...ahh...i wish for a long break...i realli need a long break... the song below seems to fit me totally...

"no rest for the weary, no consolations for the disconsolate.."

One Step Closer by Linkin Park

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Break break break break break

shut up when I'm talking to you
shut up shut up shut up
shut up when I'm talking to you
shut up shut up shut up shut up
I?m about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Break break break break break break

shut up when I'm talking to you
shut up shut up shut up
shut up when I'm talking to you
shut up shut up shut up shut up
I?m about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

"Let Them Be Little"

[Originally written and sung by Billy Dean]

I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand
Felt so good in it, no bigger than a minute
How it amazes me, you're changing with every blink
Faster than a flower blooms they grow up all too soon

So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little

I've never felt so much in one little tender touch
I live for those kisses, prayers and your wishes
Now that you're teaching me things only a child can see
Every night while we're on our knees all I ask is please

Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little

So innocent, a precious soul, you turn around
It's time to let them go

So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little

Let them be little

as i was on my way back from JP juz now...a thought came to my mind... how do u know if something really belongs to you?? you can physically grab it?? or u can feel it belongs to you?? i really have no idea...some might wanna hold it in their hands and some might be just satisfied holding it close to their heart...
and how do i define something that belongs to me?? i honestly have no ideas...somehow, the things that you think belong to you might not belong to you...but yet sometimes u have no idea that those things belong to you when they actually do...
okiez...i'm lost...i duno wat the hell i am talking abt....ignore me...itz juz another one of those daes....

"perhaps it's just me that make things that feels right to seems wrong..."

see the pyramids around the Nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember darling all the while -
you belong to me

see the marketplace in old Angier
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears -
you belong to me

and I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

oh I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I am tired of this
Well here we go one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this end
It goes on and on
And over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it wont stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought Id end up here
I never thought Id be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time
Cause I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this,

So when will this end
It goes on and on
And over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it wont stop
Till I step down from this

Sick cycle carousel, this is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle yeah

So when will this end
It goes on and on
And over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it wont stop
Till I step down from this for good
When will this end
It goes on and on
And over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it wont stop
Till I step down from this for good

todae was spent doing goodie bags...staring at mountains and mountains of goodie bags.... scary piece of shit..todae...10 men( okie...9 guys and 1 gal) took almost 10hrs to pack 15,000 bags of goodie bags...wooh~~ shiok ar....and now my arms are aching, my back is breaking but my wallet feels full...woo yeah~ show mi the moolahs...!!!

todae work was more enjoyable than yest...perhaps itz cuz all my bros were ard...got pravin and kamz ard...more laughter...time pass faster too...and work get done betta...lol... i think betta ba...ah well...but overall...fund dae..though tiring...damn tiring...gotta do up my foc stuffz...

"i saw the love in your eyes...and i know that it is not mine..."

this my 4th post for todae... i also duno why todae so on form...can keep posting n posting n posting...guess itz juz cuz of lotsa things on my mind...and somehow...i juz can't get to say it all out... everything is so bloody cooped up in me....it feels like overeating for a buffet and going to drink lotsa beer...everything all ready to spill but juz tt the body refuses to...or rather...the mind is juz the oni last thing tt prevents the body from collapsing...i never knew that my mind was this strong... since when did things goes so terribly wrong lidat...go out with ppl...everything juz feels wrong...everything has become so phony...muz smile in front of ppl...muz act in front of ppl... i fucking hate such rubbish...why can't ppl juz be themselves.... lemme shoot myself plz....argh....ccb...ccbb...CCCCBBBB~~~!@!@!#@^&

"may the pain get the hell out of my life..."

I Hope That I Don't Fall in Love with You

Tom Waits
From the album "Closing Time"


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Well I hope that I don't fall in love with you
'Cause falling in love just makes me blue,
Well the music plays and you display your heart for me to see,
I had a beer and now I hear you calling out for me
And I hope that I don't fall in love with you.

Well the room is crowded, people everywhere
And I wonder, should I offer you a chair?
Well if you sit down with this old clown, take that frown and break it,
Before the evening's gone away, I think that we could make it,
And I hope that I don't fall in love with you.

Well the night does funny things inside a man
These old tom-cat feelings you don't understand,
Well I turn around to look at you, you light a cigarette,
I wish I had the guts to bum one, but we've never met,
And I hope that I don't fall in love with you.

I can see that you are lonesome just like me,
And it being late, you'd like some some company,
Well I turn around to look at you, and you look back at me,
The guy you're with has up and split, the chair next to you's free,
And I hope that you don't fall in love with me.

Now it's closing time, the music's fading out
Last call for drinks, I'll have another stout.
Well I turn around to look at you, you're nowhere to be found,
I search the place for your lost face, guess I'll have another round
And I think that I just fell in love with you.

"when u can't make up your mind, ppl will make them up for u..."

another perfect night..no matter wat time i sleep..i'll wake up at 6 plus in the morning...i guess all the daily workings has fine tune by body to wake up at this time le... if so, so be it... i can't do much about it...gonna go airport to work later... hope it'll be a fun experience todae...

i wunt start off on the right foot...hopefully...i juz dun trip over myself and fall flat on my face todae...

"the sun may have risen, but my world is still dark..."

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

todae was a rubbishy dae...feel like a rubbish in the office...nothing much to blog...went out for recce...went to a couple of places...non suitable...wasted....had a mini brokeback session at the kopitiam...came home...and i still feel like rubbish...tml gonna work...damn...i need my liquor againz...**reach for chivas**

argh....

"the silent scream is the one that scares ppl the most...."

went down to wala wala after work todae with the folks... nice experience there...aha...and turn up that actualli liangbin was my sec sch NPCC snr..lol...wat a turn of event...the drinks were pretty good at wala..had 3 pints of hoegarden....and then my head start throbbing...the chicken wings there were pretty good too..but most imptly....the band there was good...singer is kinda cool plus damn good singing...had a pretty fun time listening to him... though it was a waste that we din listen to his last set of songs cuz gotta leave le...

but one thing i veri impressed...was tt both mui ngee and yp can realli drink wor..haa...mui drank 2 coronas...and look like it was totalli no kick...and yp down one bottle of carlsberg in one gulp...i was quite impressed wor...gals who can can drink are whoohohohoho~ lol....such a rare find....*enlist them to my drinking buddies list*

the moment i came back, went straight to bathe n KO....ahaha..best way to prevent any merlion-ing...and that's something i cannot afford to do at home...let's hope todae will be good...

"it's ok to forget, but never ok to be forgotten...i'm not ok...."

it was raining when i woke up... gotten a bit pissed at the fact that i'm gonna get wet while going to work...so decided to wait til rain stop before going out...and thus...am late for work...
at work..given funny stuffz that might or might not seemed important...but never mind...i intern...i suck thumb...
all us interns in bad mood...muz be the rain..binge during lunch..ate a 3bucks prawn noodles with lotsa chilli... shiok...the gals ate their lor mee with lotsa vinegar...and day go by with us in the office...

was walking back... and i see everyone in a mad rush again...rushing for train...rushing to get down escalators... i have no idea why... can't they slow down...things just fly by them and they move on without seeing...i dun understand... i hate such kind of life...alwaes in a rush...

FOC stuffz been piling up...hounding everyone like a dog... sms also burst my limit... everything is culminating...one of these day...i'll break open..it juz tt i duno when...

"even the biggest container will overflow sometimes..."

went out for a movie yest nite...decided to stick to my weekly regime of a movie each week...so in the end decided to watch "just my luck" with yp at JP...the movie was nice...abit cliche story...but overall itz still not that bad...i guess watch something light on a sat nite does have a feel good feeling to it...after had chicken wings at 179 there...haa...perhaps itz superstition but juz nice when we went there... the boss came out with freshly deep fried chicken wings...haha...yummy!! itz nice wor... sinfully nice... den after tt walked back to hall as alwaes..ya ya...romantic nite-walk..haha... after tt decided to cab back...since itz already like 3plus 4 le... spent some time waiting for cab...but hor...mabbe itz a stroke of luck or coincidence...a cab actualli appeared when i received yp msg...ahhaa... see....lucky star wor..lol... *abish*

and the best thing is... my house can recieved RTM2 ...lol...world cup world cup!! wooohoO~

todae attended sarah's wedding...nice n grand at hyatt hotel wor...first time went to that hotel also... the place is nice and grand...food aint tt bad too..haha....

ah well...i guess todae is a nice dae to get married...saw many wedding cars too... think it realli is a good day to be married ba..haha..

however, somehow todae seems like not tt fabulous dae to me though... at least not to me personally...after all, itz a father's dae...a dae tt i've already forgotten how it feels like to celebrate... most of u would know why.... and my fren actualli unwittingly asked me, " aren't you going back for dinner to celebrate father's dae? " >.<" but ah well...itz okiez... gotten used to it le...

"cherished wat u have, for u wunt know when are u going to lose it..."

todae is realli a relaxing sat... did nothing much...proposals...and games...den zzz abit...den went to run... haa...weekends nua-ing is quite good...later going for my weekly dosage of movie too... tonite will be "just my luck"..haha...hope it'll be a good show...

more updates next time ba..haa

"it takes more than luck to make things happens... it takes initiative!"

hah...have u wondered why for the whole week...my blog entries are all those long dae la, good dae la, bad dae...lol...i oso duno...mabbe i'm juz counting the daes...and hoping tt they will go on by fast... ah well...todae was not bad...secure another dae of canvassing job..so in total..3 daes will get like 230 moolah...wah...so shiok...ahhaa...tt's almost half of my PA money le lor....lol....can spend le...itz time to i think...haha...

aniwae...todae met up with cheng en, gan, shuyi...and actualli karena too...too bad she got last min meeting...can't join us...we had a rather nice time catching up..so long din meet le...and went down to max brenner and had their chocs fondue....mmmm.....yumz... all of us still look relatively the same...ahhaa...like we were all untouched by the years...esp shuyi... haha...the years are realli kind to her... ehhe.... here's a pic of us at max...
















after this went down to chinatown n had a ktv session with stuart, liyee and jas...long time din k tog too...so it was fun too...haa...although din last tt long..oni til 1 plus..but it was fun nonetheless..haa...had fun trying to sing all the funnie funnie songs... the place we went to cheap n not tt bad too... quite alot of new songs... and thanx stu for the ride back wor... we muz go out soon again too..haa

let's hope tml have some nice plans too...follow by sarah weddings on sun...den will be another action pack weekend... adios...

"smile more cause u'll never know whose world that u'll brightened up with it..."

aha..todae time pass quite quickly..was handling all my foc stuffz...all the way til lunch...den after lunch...was back to staring at SOA, SaaS, Web 2.0, XML, AJAX, etc etc...if these terms sounds alien to u...dun worriez...it sounds alien to me too...

another significant thing tt happen was tt i found a hp in the toilet todae when i go and "do my business" .... it was a SE w800i lor..the walkman fone... ahah... if it was me last time, i'll juz off the fone n kop it without hesitation...this time round...however wierd it sounds... that thought din occur to me...instead...i went thru the contact list and found tt the fone shuld belong to one of the employees in the company next to mine...so i went to their reception to pass it to them..haha...see... KY doing good deeds wor...since when...hahaa.... ah well...kindness begets kindness...i hope... hopefully, next time if i lose my fone...someone will return it to me too...choy choy choy...touch wood... i wunt lose my fone...muahaha....

went back hall for a small round of darts todae too..cuz got deconflict meeting which was a waste of time... luckily...still got the touch...din buang tt bad yet...not yet...and no way am i letting myself getting rusty on that... the darts may have rusted..but skills...never!! muahahhaa....

ya...overall..still kinda good dae i supposed...things get done...and i acomplished all my aims...

oh to cat...who's flying off tml...have a good flight..and bon voyage!! 一路顺风!! and dun forget my pressie...muahahahaa....


"it is not wat u gave that matter, but wat u thought of when u are giving..."

another long day at the office...same monotonous stuffz...nothing much to blog abt...oni significant thing that happened was the conversation i had with angela...asked me a few questions that i had no answers to....

came back and had a jog....or rather...a veri long jog... took me 48:28s to run finish the entire route...firstly, ran a round around my same area for warm up...den made my way into NTU via the jalan bahar exit...den ran pass src, and exited out of pioneer north... from there...den slowly jog my way home... kinda too ambitious a try ever since i off form...never tried running so hard...so many times...almost falter..but kept imagining a imaginary figure kicking me in the butt.... kept mi running n pushing on.... it feels like a journey that never ended... but luckily..it end... when i reach home...mom was shocked...i look machiam like i am dying...face pale.. panting like a dog... totalli exhausted...no mood for dinner too... but ah well...recovered now..except for the ache tt's niggling at the legs..i'm sure itz gonna be worse tml... ah well...heck it...

"it's not about how far i'm willing to run, it's about how long i'm willing to walk...with you... and i'll walk til my legs give up on me..."

the day started out fine... went to office as usual...trying veri hard to shake off the monday blue's... and it was all ok...til i received the email..came with a pdf file of 81 pgs....zzzz...my god...spent the rest of my dae ploughing thru the whole document...yeah..itz useful...but still...the words are like tiny ants crawling on my monitor...darn...read until i headache...haizzz

morning....
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<== noon..**snore**

foc meeting oso cancelled..sianz..spoil my chance of playing darts...zzz... ah well....at least can take tonite to rest abit..i hope... was also reading a bit of Dan Brown's Digital Fortress... interesting idea they have abt cryptology...aha...gotten mi kinda interested.... well...let u try decrypting this..muhahaha..see if any of u can figure this out...hahaa....

ppl...seriously...plz go watch "cars"...itz nice!!!

went down queensway to shop after movie... help yp too buy a veri nice pair of asics running shoes...ahaha..even i'm jealous of it... hahaa...
after tt went down ikea to had a nice dinner...chow down their chicken wings and hotdogs... muahhaa.. itz juz sinfully good..hehe... ah well...i guess the walk from jp to hall helped redeem my sin...at least by a bit ba...

ah well....sinful also never mind...at least it was a great day... good movie, good food, great date...wat else could i ask for?? lol...


"slow down to look at your surrounding...you'll never know wat u might find"

hehe...discover a whole webbie of goodies..muahhaa... tml watching cars so here's all of them in their full glory~~ vrrroooom~ aren't they cute??? muahahaha

Night view i took along Singapore River...
with my hp cam oni some more lor...lol...














Chocs fondue at Max Brenners... forgot to take the photo before i eat..so oni left abit of strawberries & bananas...

todae's mark the start of world cup...itz so fun to be watching tv and using my lappie at the same time...haa...such a good feeling...no need run in and out from room to room..haa...
score for first match of world cup...germany 4, costa rica 2... itz a interesting match wor..haha..so mani goals...let's hope it will be a nice world cup this time...

todae had a subway breakfast...had a subway dinner too...lol... nice n simple...plus healthy too..aha... made plans for sundae movie too...cars~ woohoo~ hot date..lol...going great world city... den ikea...den queensway..haa...sounds hot eh? lol... so looking forward to it..hahaa...

and hor...i'm enjoying my wireless....muahhahaha!! whoever invented it...thanks dude...i own u one..hahaa

"simple things bring simple pleasure in life"

wireless @ home up n running...
weekend approaching
bro is irritating...
end of updates..

"if i'm not good for now, I hope i'm good enough to wait for u..."

results out todae... and i dread the feeling of looking at results...yeah..once againz...same as last sem...straight B's...zzzz... damn shitty feeling...suddenly dun look forward to studying..studying harder oso same grades as when i dun study...kinda think that itz out of point..haizz...

hope everyone have a betta grades than mi ba....in which case..itz not tt diff...

"effort does not equate to results"

ahaha...had a damn busy weekend...now can finalli rest abit... sat was buffet, IT fair; sun was lunch, fossball..whew...at least a break...

damn inclined to write a song...lol...shall give more thot to it..and mabbe use my bro garageband to come up with a melody..muahahha...

"the one thing i can't do is walk away from u..."

aha...had a damn wierd dream...i dreamt tt i gotten A's for my examz...muhaahha...muz be starting to worry about results liao...results should be out this week...haizz...if nothing goes wrong..i guess still no A's ba..haha..most probz another straight B's...hopefully nothing worst than that...

oh..yest went for kuishinbo buffet...realise tt my appetite level had dropped quite a bit le...haha....can't eat as much as i used to... and watched xmen 3 after that..it's not that bad as ppl sae i guess..juz that the fact that some of the lead characters died so easily ( ie:scott summers)that makes it feels wierd... one muack and there he goes...zzz... ah well... and went looking at watches in those expensive watches...somehow being in those branded shops (think brands like: rolex, partek phillipe, omega etc) make me feel cheap... each watch is like a couple of Ks...zzzz.... ah well..good day nonetheless...

"I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand todae"

been in a hippy mood..haha..todae wake up feeling quite awake..todae was oso one of the few daes tt i din feel tt tired in office..time pass relatively fast...den lunch le...after tt waited for meeting....went down to board meeting...and once againz..i'm reminded that i'm a cheap labour..my whole company interns nick was..." i'm a office lady and i'm worth 3.25..." wow...damn cheap eh...even deuce bigelow worth more than mi..at least he's 10bucks n negotiable...mine, 3.25 and so not negotiable la..haizz

ah well..been listening to lotsa hip hop songs in the office...and my recommendation...Yin Yang Twins...their songs are quite hippy and sure to get ur booty gyrating to their beats...hahaa...esp the song "shake"...try it if u all like it...

ah...went met up with yp too for dinner..nice affair againz..and scoopz was nice...sinfully nice..ahaa...it sure feels good to sin when you're not alone..ahhaa... tml buffet...even more sinful wor..haha..watching xmen 3 too..hope itz a good show...heard lotsa mix review abt it..haha..ah welll...at least shall see the bird man...

"don't ya wish your girlfren was a freak like me??"

another song posting tt i'd recently listened and come to love...special dedications...

Too Beautiful For Words (Christina Aguilera)

When I try to describe how I feel when you hold me
I get butterflies lullabies, it's hard to explain
Like the sent of a rose or the sound of the rain
It's too precious and too wonderful to give it a name
Too beautiful for words
A symphony inside me
Too beautiful for words
I can not take them lightly
Can you hear my silent heart
It's on the tip of my tongue
But my lips are still sealed
Only violins and their innocence can show you how I feel
And I hear them again
At the end of the day
I'm all teary-eyed when we kiss good-bye
There's nothing I can say
Too beautiful for words
A symphony inside of me
Too beautiful for words
I can not take them lightly
Can you hear my silent heart
Must be a million times
I've tried to express this love of mine
When it goes this deep, when it tastes this sweet
It's not easy to define
Too beautiful for words
A symphony inside me
Too beautiful for words
I can not take them lightly
Can you hear my silent heart

Krav
26 years of sailing
Nocturnal and alcoholic
Small eyes, wrong perceptions
Taurus monkey man

Kravings, Otaku, Hermit
Anecdotal, metaphorical, illogical
Never trusting, suspecting
Gundams-lover
Yearning, loathing
U and only u

Living freely,
Ostentatious, Obnoxious,
Venturing, learning
Enduring storms
Sailing the high seas,

Yours truly
Only,
Undyingly










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