this my 4th post for todae... i also duno why todae so on form...can keep posting n posting n posting...guess itz juz cuz of lotsa things on my mind...and somehow...i juz can't get to say it all out... everything is so bloody cooped up in me....it feels like overeating for a buffet and going to drink lotsa beer...everything all ready to spill but juz tt the body refuses to...or rather...the mind is juz the oni last thing tt prevents the body from collapsing...i never knew that my mind was this strong... since when did things goes so terribly wrong lidat...go out with ppl...everything juz feels wrong...everything has become so phony...muz smile in front of ppl...muz act in front of ppl... i fucking hate such rubbish...why can't ppl juz be themselves.... lemme shoot myself plz....argh....ccb...ccbb...CCCCBBBB~~~!@!@!#@^&
"may the pain get the hell out of my life..."