woke up feeling very uneasy...duno why..but i dun like such feeling... somehow somehow...there are things that just dun feel the same anymore...i wonder what has happened...or whether something will happened..

later going universal...hopefully it'll be fun...

"when you wished upon the distant star, and you realized how far apart we are..."

woke up earlier to prepare breakfast yesterday... haha....and due to a very simple budget..could only come up with this... American breakfast on an american plate!! haha... simple food of just ham, hotdogs, bacon and an egg... dun look down on the ugly arrangement...it's actually quite nice! ahaha...

my simple american breakfast...



lunch was at this burger joint... duno wat's the name oso..but for less than $4, you could get a dbl hamburger and fries and drinks... itz kinda worthwhile..though i'm sick of hamburgers liao....

for dinner, we went to rieber hall to eat their cafe stuffz... for like $7, u get a whole buffet selection! it's madness la...gan and me were like hungry ghost released for the 7th month... we had like honey chicken with mash potato, italian soup, turkey corndog, brownies, desserts, craneberry juice etc etc... it's sooo shiok la...ahhaa.. after coming here for like 1 week...this has gotta be the most worth it meal that we ate...

tadaa~ check out this life-size Bumblebee from Transformers...cool rite? they have this opening premiere of Transformer the movie at nite...heard that the cast of transformers and even Sucre from prison break will be coming! cool!!

oh ya..saw this off my fren's blog..decided to rip it n share...


"out of sight...but definitely not out of my mind..."

aha..well..for my mom's convenience..decided to post more pics up...

here's the pic of the in LA...nice n clear eh...cloudless but weather still super duper nice...everyday is like air con lidat..


here's a pic of where i'm staying... 555 Glenrock...it looks like a sleazy motel..but it seriously isn't...you'll see...


a pic of the kitchenette in my apartment..has a stove, dishwasher, fridge, microwave, ovan even!

here's a pic of my living room...


and the bedrom...


and more kitchenette..


and here's some of the folks from NTU with me while we are out shopping for pillows in Westwood Pavilion... from left to right..cherin, me, Herry, Iskander

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oh..had a damn weird dream last nite oso.. i dreamt of my maternal grandma borrowing lotsa money...and run away with all the money to another place... she even borrow money from my paternal grandpa and a whole lot of ppl...and she ran away while i was still at her house...i was damn pissed and vowed to hunt her down...tt's in the dream la... weird dream la..hahaa... quite amusing dream though...ahaha...

"the road is more than enough for 2 person...but i only wanna walk with you..."

todae finalli went down to the ucla campus...cuz had lessons...went for this econs n law lesson...den went for asian philosophy aka buddhism lesson...lol...interesting lessons both are...lol... but hor..one thing tt struck mi was the sheer beauty of the campus itself...the architecture was kinda archaic and yet have abit of renaissance feel... damn nice la...some of them actualli resemble castles lor.. and the whole place is filled with green and other color flowers...so veri the nice la...here's some pics to show all of u...oh...and i tried taking the nite skies using the camera with the hope of catching stars....but din work out...bah~ think 7.2MP is still not enuf ...sadz...ahah... oh well....but we're still under the same skies though...ahaa...



the top of some hall..i forget liao..looks like a nice castle hor...


the garden walkway of ucla...

more buildings...


another massive building...looks so cool la..

the most expensive "cai fan" i ever ate... 2 meat, 1 drinks n 1 fortune cookies = 7USD...ouch...

"there's a treasure underneath every rainbow... seek and thou shall find..."

started on my 2nd day in LA...still not used to the sleeping hrs here...alwaes wake up like 5am US time...also dunno why..mabbe cuz the sky brightened up le so i wake up...but seriously, the daylight in LA is quite long... 5am sunrise...den 9pm sunset...it allows u to do so many things during the daytime la...hahah....
i like my apartment tt i living in though...itz like standalone apartment equipped with everything...from kitchenette to toilet to living room...good stuff..shall post pics soon...todae got lesson though...hopefully it'll be fun~

aha...as promised to everyone... here's photos of my 1 day trip in japan.. haa... japan is really a shopper paradise...i ain't much of a shopper so i din buy much.... but walk around most of the town area..and yeah..it's indeed bustling with people and action..aha.. pity din took much fotos there..but oh well..here's wat i got...



first stop: Shibuya...
one of the main shopping areas in Japan akin to our orchard road..many giant signboards adorned the building... and the crowds are more of youngsters n the fashion conscious...



this is harajuku i think... which is like one stop away from Shibuya...kinda like doby gauht area..but likewise it has lotsa shops for shopping...too bad i din go into those main block of shopping centre like takashimaya or odakyu... din see elevator ladies..sadz...


nite time in shinjuku... one of the more vibrant nightlife area.. it's juz next to kubukicho...which is somewat a rather sleezy place... crowds of well dressed guys in suits would swarm you and show you pics of damn pretty girls...(which i assume would be social escorts) many KTVs, massage parlours can be found in the area too~

our small hotel room which we find in Kabukicho... modest enuf but yet have all the amenities you need... wat else could we expect from 9000 yen...


next morning was spent at akihabara....aki is actually the electronics town of japan and lotsa animes stuffz could be found here...the above poster is actually taken from a shop which sells...yeah...see the pic and i guess u could guess.... lotsa hentais, AVs, animes stuffz are here..and this is where all those otakus u seen or heard on tv come most...

from a shop selling costume...cosplay(costume play) is a common thing in akihabara...many ppl are seen wearing costumes such as gothic lollita or high school girls like the above one walking ard here... even those tt gives out pamphlets are dressed in costumes to attract attention to pedestrians... (costume above looks familiar eh? itz from Rei in Eva)


this another storefront of a costume specialty store... gothic lollita stuffz and even SM stuffz can be found in the shops...vibrators and all sorts of sex aids (whips, handcuffs etc) all can be found here... just look at the store front and u know le...

this is the ticket of our main mode of transport... the japan metro system...itz complicated like siao...but if u know how to read the myriads of colour lines crossing over the whole map...yeah...u'll be able to get to where u want eventually....

guess wat this machine is for?? ahaa... looks cool rite...it's actualli a food ticket vending machine..basically u juz drop in the correct amount of money and press the button for the food u want... and dne u juz use the voucher to exchange for the food at the counter...

and tadaa~ this is wat i choose to eat for my first meal in japan...this bowl of ramen cost 900 yen la.. but it's seriously dammnnn nice~ the soup is super thick, the char siew is so well cook that it melts in your mouth...and the taste is so rich...my god...it's like the best tasting ramen ever!! **floats away** ppl who come japan next time...dun be a fool n dun try ramen eh!

and wat's japan without eating their specialty...sushi!?! all the sushi here taste quite differently from singapore, and is so much nicer and fresher...the sushi in the pic is actually fatty tuna...one of the higher grade sushi here.. and it's seriously damn damn nice too..the tuna melt in mouth one lor... the taste in this sushi is so nice la... damn..pics oso can make me drool..bahh~


to end it all... here's my loot for the japan trip... a 7.2 MP Sony W80 camera for 30000 yen! tt's like oni 300 plus dollars! oh...another which i dun have pic for is another MG Gundam..ahah...it's so cheap lor...wahaha... all thanks to akihabara~

yeah..tt's all for Japan...ahah..stay tuned for LA ba~

"for it simply makes me feel like a kid in a candy store...with happiness overflowing..."

watched this show attack no. 1..abt a girls volleyball sch team...heard one interesting phrase...
"dreams exist for reality..." and this led me to think about something wat a fren said before... between dreams and reality, it's juz a matter of how much u want ur dreams to be real... i guess i do have dreams...but the extent of how much i want the dreams to be real... i have no idea...and to me...perhaps the notion of "nothing is impossible" doesn't really exist within my context... there are always thing i can't achieved before i even attempt them... and i guess... i gotta stop thinking that way...

perhaps it's in human nature to complain... ppl complain abt going back for ICT...i did...and when i'm in it..it just doesn't feel so bad after all...i guess....tt's wat we call adaptations...


spent the last 4 daes in-camp doing my reservist...had a good time talking to all my men, fellow specs etc...it's real good to see them... but din had such a good time doing stuffz...thank goodness we all help each other...

and by 6am tml, i'm flying off to LA... time for mi to explore the wild wild west... i'll update more over there...for my frens here..i'll miss u all...

"you shall be missed...i wished upon the star..."

tml booking in liao...bah..sianz...just wanna post up 2 fotos nia though...ahaha


veri big piece of tissue prata hor...plz ignore the background..irrelevant to pic...LOL... but he;s actualli the driver who took us to the place though..aha..thanks zhuohao!



after 1 day of art training, this is wat i came up with...a view from my room to my hallway..
still not tt nice though..

been trying to use my brain more... hence the writing..and todae...i spent my daes drawing... ahah... trying to recover all my lost skills in drawings especially...nowadays... i can't draw properly at all! compare to the time i was in sec sch or even JC, my drawings sux big time now...haizz...took out my old sketch book n look at it...and i still cannot believe i could draw like this before...haizz...muz get back the skills....train train train!


a pic of xiao long nu...from the shen diao comix...think i drew this in sec sch...


another gal that i drew out from another comic...



current level of drawing...pathetic...

"things that you dun used get lost after a while..."

For her:

He was just another lab partner. Or maybe, worst than her previous lab partner. At least her previous lab partner had look slightly better. This new lab partner of her, he looked like he was still a high schooler and not an undergraduate at all. But oh well, she still got to be civil to him, for she’s now stuck with him as a lab partner.

Every lab sessions, she finds him very eager to help her out. He’ll offer her little snacks and drinks and even assisted her in clearing up after the lab session. It’s him who wants to help, and I didn’t ask him to. To her, he’s just another one of those guys who’s eager to please, and occasionally, she’ll give them a pat on the head and they’ll be happy wagging their tails at her. She just can’t stand such people. To her, people who are pleasing just have some ulterior motive. And these are the kind of people she can’t trust.

And that’s the reason why she always seems so aloof and cold in school. Even though she’s popular and such, there’re not many people she would call friends or even talk to. She’ll rather be left alone to herself, and left alone to bear the burden of the family herself.

Her mother had died when she was giving birth to her sister. And her father had worked hard to make ends meet to bring up the 2 daughters. There was just one little problem. He was also an alcoholic. Whenever he was drunk and in a bad mood, Ms Stunning and her sister will suffer her father’s wrath. He blamed his daughters for the loss of his wife whenever he was drunk, and unleashed the occasional punches or two on them. But all that was only when he was drunk. Apart from that, he was an okay father. Really.

And this is why she can’t trust people. Even her father who is a nice guy turned ugly when his drunk. And she was scared of the fact that people might see her differently when they know her family condition. And so, she avoided all topics about her family as much as possible. But recently, her father had lost his job. And of course, he sank further and further into alcohol dependency. She began to start dreading to return home, as she’ll only find her father roaring drunk. In school, she was the confident gal that everyone wanted to be, but at home, she was just another simple gal who wanted to get away from her life.

She loves the rain. She loves listening to the pitter patter of the rain drops. She loves to see the rain falling from the skies and dashing themselves into pieces on the ground below. She loves the way the air and skies feel cleaner after the rain. And she wishes that the rains could wash all her troubles and dash all these troubles into little pieces. And so, whenever it rain, her eyes would look into the distant horizon and imagine herself falling and breaking into million tiny pieces.

to be continued...

"everyone has a story to tell...but not everyone has an audience to listen.."

was damn bored...and decided to write a composition! back to sec sch days where writing narrative was so fun... haha...

Of him and her...

He was Mr. Average. Plain-looking, freckled face, and with a body that was slightly on the pudgy side. He was average in school, with average results, and always seems to hide under the radar. At parties, he was what people would call the wallflower, easily willing away into non existence compare to the other party goers. He had this downcast look on his face all the time and seldom did he look at other people in the eye. People find him shifty, but I guess he’s just insecure.

She, on the other hard, was Ms Stunning. Pretty, curvy, and poised in her ways. Her immaculate face, with her long silky hair, makes her the centre of attraction everywhere she goes. In school, she was the one person people want to be, and would like to be with. Her locker is always filled with letters from secret admirers, and which she always just tossed them all casually. All these attribute to her confidence in life. She was not an attention seeker, but all these attention she was getting, she doesn’t seem to mind it one bit. On the outside, she was all everybody wanted. However, no one really seems to care what she wants.

And by a stroke of luck, of perhaps one might call it misfortune, Mr. Average and Ms. Stunning ended up in the same class. And best thing of all, they were lab partners. I guess this is what it meant be “beauty and the beast”, for she was the beauty, and he, the beast. All of a sudden, he became the envy of others, as he was “the lab partner” of her. All these unwanted attention on him makes him very uncomfortable, as he hated being in the limelight. However, one thing he does enjoy is, of course the lab session with her.

For him:

He found her very intriguing. The way she goes about her way, the confidence she exudes, the way she shrugs things off when the experiment results went awry, and the downcast, the way she smile at him and greeted him when she sees him at the hallways, and the way her eyes always seem so distant when she’s looking through the windows during rainy days. Perhaps opposites do attracts, even if it’s just one way.

He started to look forward to the lab sessions. He loitered at the hallway near her lockers more, hoping just to catch a glimpse of her. For him, she was the flame of the candle, and he was the wax to keep her burning. She was the moon, and he was the clouds to hide her away when she wants to. She was the rocks, and he was the surging waves that crash upon her. Okay, you got the idea.

He became very observant, especially towards her. And he was already very observant in the first place. After-all, what else could a Mr. Average do apart from observing his surroundings and trying to go with the flow of others. He would notice her changes in the way she do her hair, her school work, and other little nitty gritty things that people would overlook. For her, he’ll go the extra mile to do anything. He would get her snacks and drinks in between the lab sessions, clear up for her after lab, and even make additional notes for her. To him, she was his world. And just being part of it is enough.

He realized he is slowly, but surely, falling in love with Ms. Stunning. The whole school could see that she was special to him, and they hate him for even thinking of being close to someone so popular, someone so pretty, and someone who deserved someone much better than him. And yet when he was confronted by the other guys, he always came up with some flimsy excuse about how she was a just a lab partner to him and helping her equates to helping himself in getting good grades. And people would accept that for they know that he have no chance in getting any closer to her.

He hates being scrutinized by people. Everything he do, he’s being watched. Or rather, he feels that he’s being watched. And all the wanted to do was to be a friend to Ms. Stunning, to care for her, to protect her, and to watch over her. And he doesn’t need any reward for that, as long as she was in his mind all day. He doesn’t dare to want more, although he hope and dream of being with her. He was scared that if he wants more, or even try to wants more, all these will slip away from him. He would no longer be able to see her, and be close to her, and listen to her talk and see her smiles any more. He would rather be contented with the situation now rather than risk anything.

to be continued...

"do you want it hard enough?"

heard this song on the radio...bring back old memories...

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you(Yes, I do)

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Ahhh...I can't stop dreaming of you
Ahhh...I can't stop dreamin

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly...

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almost every chiong session i went to with the 44 ppl resulted in ppl getting wasted...and this time...it ain't an exception...lol... eh...when will it be my turn ar?? i wanna get wasted oso leiz...wahaha.....

juz had supper from ah lian too..nice bee hoon..nice chicken wings...ahha...this weekend shall be a good boy n stay home liao...sianz! muz pack for my ICT on mon..and US trip on Sat...bahh....

"there's nowhere in the world i rather be, than here in my room, dreaming with you endlessly..."

i'm a sucker for "the apprentice"... i really am...i watched almost all the seasons religiously, and even re-runs whenever i have the time... mabbe i juz love to watch trump sae the word..."you're fired"... or mabbe i juz have dreams to become a big boss that can fire ppl...haha....maybe maybe...

on another note...i realized i'm quite a thick headed person when it comes to ethics... i juz argued with my brother over dota...for he lacks ethic in gaming... somehow... i believe that how u play games is in fact a extension of how you conduct yourself in life... if you are like constantly kill-stealings, back-dooring etc... it does reflects in your everyday life... mabbe i'm juz stubborn and inflexible...

"liar, cheat, steal...what do you do best?"

u know...given a choice... would you rather be in a dream forever and never wake up from it...or would you wake up from wat u know is a dream and face reality again...

i had a dream this afternoon...or rather..it was a assortment of dreams...there's superheroes ( no..i din watch fantastic 4 yet either..) there's jacelyn tay ( i have no idea why..she ain't my idol...) and of course...there's my fave hero too.. lying on the green grassy grass patch...looking up at the clear starry skies..just listening to you talk... watching you smile...mm....life's good man... this the kind of dreams i realli wouldn't wanna wake up from... if i could trapped in this dream forever... so be it...

"let it be so...if only it could be so...for i know it isn't so..."

had a busy weekend..met up with quite a few frens... sat met up with cat n yp....gotten a free dinner n desserts treat from them...wahaha...so lucky! thanks cat n yp for the treat though..lol...it was nice catching up with both of you too....
den sundae had a birthdae celebration for my dear da jie and hh... 21st... finally reached adulthood for them...aha...had dinner at essential brew...food was decent....and we took a helluva amount of photos..aha...shall post them when i received them...da jie.. u will send mi rite?? u better hor... and after that had a chillout session at wala wala...not bad too....EIC ain't bad at all.... and yeah..spend alot of money...sobz...


man in black...




and they say gals dun drink beer...


hh's present..(gundam excluded)


"a life is worth only the amount of good it has accumulated..."

from a email my fren sent me abt married life... i guess mabbe tt's the reason why ppl dun like to get married...

Before the marriage:

He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.

She: Do you want me to leave?

He: NO! Don't even think about it.

She: Do you love me?

He: Of course!

She: Have you ever cheated on me?

He: NO! Why you even asking?

She: Will you kiss me?

He: Yes!

She: Will you hit me?

He: No way! I'm not such kind of person!

She: Can I trust you?

He: Yes.


Now after the marriage you can read it from below to up!!!!

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another extract from a book i've been reading...somehow, in spite of the extremist view, there seem to be a element of truth inside... so what is it that i'm living for?

i don't even want money. what's the point? you see something you want to buy, you get excited about having it, you buy it, the excitement fades. Everything's the way it was before. I've seen through that game. They make you want things so that they get your money. Then they take your money and then they've got it, and what do they do? They use it ot buy things someone else has made them want. For a few moments they think they're happy, and it all fades and everything's the way it was before. How stupid can you get? It's like fish. Fish swim about all day finding food to give them energy to swim about all day. It makes me laugh. These people who hurry about all day making money to sell each other things. Anyone with eyes to see could tell them their lives are meaningless and they aren't getting any happier.

" People can't see the truth when it's right in their face... only from far, you can see the big picture..."

somehow...i feel alot of this song...mmm.... enjoy ba...

<淘汰>

我说了 所有的谎
你全都相信
简单的 我爱你
你却老不信
你书里的剧情
我不想上演
因为我喜欢 喜剧收尾

我试过 完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了
梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌歌词何必押韵
就算我是K歌之王
也不见得把 爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆 没有皱褶
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安赢得你信任
我却得到你 安慰的淘汰

我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了
梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌歌词何必押韵
就算我是K歌之王
也不见得把 爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆 没有皱褶
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安赢得的信任
我却得到你 安慰的淘汰
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆 没有皱褶
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安赢得的信任
我却得到你 安慰的淘汰

todae is results dae...as alwaes... many ppl are happy..as well as there are many ppl who are sad...but wateva the case...i'm glad i graduated..gotten my first A in NTU for 3 yrs...and itz FYP! haha... den manage to get a 2nd lower honour..thank goodnesss....

"live your life the way u want it to be...not how they want u to be..."

entertain myself with some bird that i gotten recently.... and also been playing old chinese game...flame dragon 2.... nice game....and ya..nothing much le... oh ya, for pin, the webbie to watch little chef is www.crunchyroll.com...itz like you-tube...except better and faster...a shit load of stuffz to watch too! watch liao tell mi if u like it too notz eh~ haha....

"heavy traffic obstruct the road...to cross or not to cross...that's the question..."

i dreamt again! this time round...i din die!! and it's quite a funnie dream too..wahaha... i dreamt tt i was out for dinner on some special occasion...and it's at this nice fine dining place alfresco style with a cheap set meals...at nite, i was with this gal to have dinner... and i have no idea why but danny(small) came along and was our waiter for the night!!! oh my god... i was laughing so hard at it...and no offense to danny ar... but he worked real hard to set up a nice place for me that nite in the dream...
and the best part is...in the dream, the gal came, dressed in a nice black dressy gown and all...complete with this fishnet gloves and booyah...did she look gorgeous.... and i was just simply dumb- founded... oh ya...one of my officer in army was in the dream too...my PC when i was in SOA...apparently, he was the owner of the restaurant... yeah..it's a damn weird mix of ppl in my dream...but hell yeah...this is one dream i hate waking up from.... $%@#(@)_(**)

"perhaps wat they sae is true...u dream wat u think..."

went to chiong yest nite... it was madness....4 guys...3 drunk gals... my god... it was mad... but it was a shitload of fun too..ahaa...gals free flow at dbl O... 3 gals keep queueing up for tequilla shots...exotic shots...and a few others... all break limit yest nite...ahaha... oh well..it's fun...seriously... and we all drank more than 4 shots!


the drunked...


the camera conscious...


and the seh....

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been having all sorts of funnie dreams recently... all leading to one thing...death...mmm...i wonder wat that signifies...
"we live in a dream we will not want to wake up from..."

Krav
26 years of sailing
Nocturnal and alcoholic
Small eyes, wrong perceptions
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Kravings, Otaku, Hermit
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Gundams-lover
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U and only u

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Venturing, learning
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