not that spectacular mtv... but i just love this song and the meaning it is trying to convey... one of my all time fave... and it used to be the only song i know how to play on the guitar...abit...


"all you have to do is close your eyes...and just reach out your hands..."

seriously..i think i'm quite blessed... i'm blessed with a good family... a good career... good colleagues and working environment (so far)... and some very very good frens...
with so many things....there aint realli nothing much i can complain abt... life's seems to be fair...it took away some things from me...it gives something back in return... and i guess...it's something to be thankful about...

caught a movie yest nite...flew down from office to suntec to catch any available show..ended up watching 30 days of nite... horror genre...ahhaa... show wasn't that spectacular... but the fun part is watching someone squirm around in the seat from being too freak out by the movie...lol... no offence intended..ahah... after which had a lousy subway from suntec...bread was veri flat...whole sandwich was falling into a million pieces with everything spilling out from everywhere... ah well.. JP one is alwaes much nicer...
had quite lotsa fun yest nite while chionging too... been quite long since i enjoy myself during clubbing... drink to my hearts content... bought like 2 jugs, 4 shots, 2 quickie and 6 lychee martinis...and martinis is slowly climbing up to replace my fave drink...at mambo...music was decent...saw quite a few familiar faces too.. but ended up heading over to future...music was of course good..but the it was seriously as crowded as alwaes... squeezy like mad...but oh well... at least the crowd ain't too bad... good fun nonetheless...
ahh...i shall fully plan everything..so tt i can enjoy this long weekend...woot~~ i love this break!

"there are words that you can see...and need not be said for you to know it's true..."

it's too late to apologise..
i said it's too late to apologise...it's too late...
u left mi in that bloody stink hole...
ah ah ah ah...staying alive staying alive...
is it going is it going is it going is it going...
i duno...what i'm looking for....
cashew, sweet peas or crackers...
something salty something sweet...
once open and air starts leaking...
and nothing crunchy is ever left...
life is just a big bag of mix nuts....
you only choose what u want to eat...

"the stripper left me hanging there..."

can't resist putting this here...

爱永远都是难题　 失去分寸太容易　 谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼 有时候忘了珍惜　 伤害来的太无意　 有时爱太急　需要空间呼吸 争吵愈狠痛愈深刻　 然后不断自责　 我们都忘了最初的快乐 拥抱越紧痛愈深刻　 谁不会舍不得　 现在我给的或许并不是你要的 如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说 如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过 就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　 爱着你　仍是我的执着 让你哭泣对不起　为了爱承受委屈　 说过的承诺　其实还没忘记 愈是在乎的关系　愈是相处不容易　 伤害了你　我也失去勇气 争吵愈狠痛愈深刻　然后不断自责　 我们都忘了最初的快乐 拥抱越紧痛愈深刻　 谁不会舍不得　 现在我给的或许并不是你要的 如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说 如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过 就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　 爱着你　仍是我的执着 走到感情关键时候　却握不住你的手　 还能有什么藉口　让爱再回头 多少的爱说不出口　 就让时间帮我说话　我一个人拼命挣扎 总比两个人一起难过还好吧 如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说 如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过 就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　 爱着你　仍是我的执着 爱着你　唯一的解脱

"til always...i'll love you..."

不知不觉又过了几天
我想我习惯了忽略
去忽略没你的时间

不近不远走在谁身边
我想我适应了一切
这一切没你的时间

某条路某条街 某首歌某间店
某种熟悉但如今 却刺眼
不碰触不跨越 为自己留一些 安全界线

谁都以为不听不看 也就没感觉
一转身 才发现 空气里面
依旧飘散着记忆的气味

谁有所谓或无所谓 也不能改变
原来是我 在爱上你的那瞬间
就困在围墙里面

某条路某条街 某首歌某间店
某种熟悉但如今 却刺眼
不碰触不跨越 为自己留一些 安全界线

谁都以为不听不看 也就没感觉
一转身 才发现 空气里面
依旧飘散着记忆的气味

谁有所谓或无所谓 也不能改变
原来是我 在爱上你的那瞬间
就困在围墙里面

谁都以为不听不看 也就没感觉
一转身 才发现 空气里面
依旧飘散着记忆的气味

谁有所谓或无所谓 也不能改变
原来是我 在爱上你的那瞬间
就困在围墙里面
多可悲 围墙都在 对不对

"..."

been doing shift this week.. kinda like it...if not for the fact i might lose all remaining of social life that i have... but working at nite is quiet...at least in the office..but not the fone-lines of course...
but quite good... i kinda like the shift work...dinner oso no need squeeze with 5000 other shenton way workers like lunch hour lidat...ahh... and considering itz 2 more daes to payday..life's pretty good...
ya...back to slacking...

"which is the real you...cold and heartless...friendly and full of spirit..."

life is like a number game... life's greatest measure is quantity...and not really quality...

how hardworking you are is measured by the amount of hours u put in... and not the quality of
your work...

how good your life is determined by the wealth you accumulated and not the things u have achieved...

how sociable are you is measured by the number of girlfriends you had in the past...

how every fuck thing is related to numbers....

i'm just sick of playing the number game...

"the more you put in...the more it diminish... i hate LDMR..."

你笑着说
今天早餐
吃得不是很够
我的肚子
那么绞痛
只有你不懂
你霸占了拉面点中
属于我的角落
所以你问
我们应该吃什么
今天吃什么
你总这样说但你却没有真的在管我
今天吃什么我得这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
你霸占了老吧杀属于我的角落
所以我知我们不是你和我
今天吃什么你总这样说
但你却没有真的在管我
不想吃太多我想这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有吃错了什么
虽然你不说或许位不多
太晚我才懂其实人太多
今天吃什么你总这样说
但你却没有真的在管我
也许人太多我也这样说
这是唯一能打包饭的理由

list of things to do on a sunday:
1. sleep
2. wake up
3. change position
4. sleep
5. repeat

that's how i normally spend sundays... sundays at home is a great way to keep up with sleep...sleep enough for the whole week...so fri and sat can go and play til my heart content... (provided got ppl)
wanting to buy a lot of things...but just resisting the temptation to buy all of them at one goal... must space them out and only get neccessary thing first... need to buy watch...(and no cat, i dun wan buy $5 watch to tahan first..wahaha...) need new clothes..need something i can wear on dress down fri... need a new pair of specs... which shall i get first! argh... and christmas coming once again...1 more month to christmas... and hurrah! i'll have a holiday by then...hopefully my leave get approve..den shiok liaoz...

for now..things to look forward to:
ktv on next sat
clearing of OIL on the 29th
payday on the 23rd

"we're so very near but yet so far apart... "

the thing about expectation is when it is high... it also takes a bigger tumble... mabbe tt's why i learn not to have any expectations..or rather...to expect very high expectations and things to go my way... in this way..all the uneven bumps in life seems to smoothen itself out and life becomes a much more bearable journey...

and i guess it's realli diff to impose my expectations on ppl ba... the simplest of intentions get mis-read... the kindest of words get distorted... we just can't expect ppl to understand ppl just from words alone...

perhaps...i oso dun understand myself...just perhaps... but i guess sometimes it doesn't really matter... cuz our sole existance in life... perhaps is just to be a memory in others...for when ppl die and leave...it's oni the memories that remains matter...

"it's not wat u do....it's how ppl remember you...or not..."

frens are like a bowl of good ramen... super rare to find... but yet taste superbly... for once u had a good bowl of ramen...nothing ever comes close....
went to this little ramen stall near my work area... considering the small shop stall front.. it was very crowded..and ppl have to queue up to eat at this ramen stall... the chefs' are japanese...and the whole setting was really quite authentic... like the one i went to in japan...less the coupon machine... and now introducing the lead for the day... shouyu butter corn ramen... it's amazing what butter can do to the soup of this ramen.. the corns are sweet... the soup super rich...enhanced by the bit of butter melting into the hot soup... and best of all..the char siew is like the one i ate in japan...melt in your mouth...it's totally wonderfully good... things dun have to be complicated to be good...


Ramen near work area

ramen in japan

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finished watching nodame cantibile... quite a good show i would say...brightened up my horizon on classical music a fair bit... i like the ending part...was quite touched by it... now i kinda regret missing my convocation... but i think it's good that i missed it too... i'm not realli a veri farewell person...

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sometimes.... keeping yourself guarded means not sharing your burdens, your secrets with anyone... and it's indeed tiring... having to be aware of your surrounding...having to be hesitant in everything you do and say...
but compare to getting hurt... i rather not take the chance... though i do wish that i can let down the burden sometimes...

"regrets are the things that make us grow stronger... "

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

"when kindness has become a weakness...do you still stay kind..."

sat is boring with nothing to do...and so i was sifting thru my msn...looking at my fren's nick..all of a sudden..some nick caught my attention..so i msg the person...ended up i mistook tt person for someone else...

and we just started chatting... like back in sec sch using irc lidat... and was puzzled why on earth will i ahve tt person on my msn list... and the more we chatted....came to a realization...she was my army fren ex gf! was realli quite stunned! but i still dunno why i have her msn too... ah well... to make a new fren on a boring sat...not too bad i guess...

"time is a luxury i dun have... you dun have...."

end of the week is here...nothing has been planned..sux... muz cough up something to do tml...

to do list for tml:
1. cut hair (horoscope sae good dae to change my outlook)
2. wish my frens good luck for examz
3. plae some psp
4. watch some tv
5. find ppl tt i can bug to go out with
6. dun use my brain for aniting

mmm...a random thot juz cross my mind... wonder is there ani link between "atas" and "sata"
atas = high class
sata = hard disk

mmm...itz amazing how words tt are mirror of each other mean diff things altogether...

"when u drink, dun drive... if u puke after drinking, tt means u din drink enuf.."

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

"the beauty of it all is there are somethings that are just more than words..."

lazy sunday... sleep and sleep and sleep.... and i still feel like sleeping... okiez..i'm a pig...
duno how this 2 pic got into my com...muz be my bro who d/l it... but i find it quite interesting...
well...i guess these are the things that we really shouldn't play with...





"看不见你的笑, 我怎能睡的着..."

happiness comes in small dosage.. simple things like completing a run...a gym workout...talking with a old fren... having dinner and supper with frens... talking abt un-impt things... these are the things that can keep me happy... perhaps my definition of happiness is much simpler than others... i dun need to be in the lime-light...i dun need to be stress over monthly sales figures... i dun worry about not having enuf money to feed the family (tt includes the 4 of you!)... i guess these are the things tt allow me to be contented... with contentment... happiness comes naturally...

personally... i think it's juz a simple rule to be happy... look inwards to yourself... if u are thinking mostly of things that you have... you're on the route to be happy... but if you are alwaes thinking abt the things that u dun... you'll never be happy...

comparison is one of the main factor that drives ppl to discontentment...although it also allows ppl to strive to better oneself... but excessive comparison do drive ppl up the wall and cause ppl to wallow in despair and sadness... wat's impt is u know wat u want in ur life... and wat ways you are going to achieve that ends (legally of course)...

and even though life's challenges are harsh and unforgiving... there'll always be ppl with you every steps of the way....

"for i am the way i am and no one can take away me from me..."

i dun like sat with nothing to do... it's a waste of precious weekend...haizz..boring..boring...

songs about waiting...


Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you


I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door.
Oooooo
Why did you have to go?
You could of let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could of stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand.
Oooooo
And all my tears stay
runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy(crazy)
Ooooo
How can you walk away
(Way) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
[Wait For You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Noooooo
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you (for you)
Ooooooo
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

"dreamer..i'm a dreamer... save me from this dreaming..."

Krav
26 years of sailing
Nocturnal and alcoholic
Small eyes, wrong perceptions
Taurus monkey man

Kravings, Otaku, Hermit
Anecdotal, metaphorical, illogical
Never trusting, suspecting
Gundams-lover
Yearning, loathing
U and only u

Living freely,
Ostentatious, Obnoxious,
Venturing, learning
Enduring storms
Sailing the high seas,

Yours truly
Only,
Undyingly










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