have u ever wondered how ur life is going to turn out in future? or wonder abt wat destiny have in store for u....sometimes i do...sometimes i would dream of a future (provided i have one) with a wife, couple of kids, and wonder how they will turn out to be... i wonder how they will look like (preferably big eyes...unlike mine)... but somehow...these thoughts juz distressed me... all those future looks highly unprobable...
here i am, about to approach the 23 yr of my existance on this world and i look back...boy...was i stun by wat i saw....i see...i see....absolutely nothing... the past 20 yrs....i do not have much significant contribution...some of you have have excellent eca records, excellent grades...become scholars or watsoeva.... i juz dun... somehow such achievements lead mi to think tt...am success realli judge by those stuffz alone?? so wat if i obtain frickin 20,000 distinctions in all my results.... so wat if i'm the chairman of this society or club...does tt means i've achieved something?? i guess achievement depends on how ppl view the things tt are impt...i guess...but more likely than not...it has become wat society see as impt to a person to determine a person success... geez..tt's a sucky thot....i can't determine my own future n success..wtf...
but yeah...fame, fortune, reputation....i guess they aint impt to mi..i'll oni walk this earth a short while...and no one will remember me when i'm gone... man...another sucky thought...if i ever have any decesdent, by the 3rd or 4th generation...i'm sure i will be juz another name on a stone tablet....pui~ and i frickin work my guts off to be juz a name on a damn stone tablet....damn it....
i can frickin carve my name in a stone tablet in 10 mins...much less wait for my entire life to do so...argh... man oh man...wat a lousy life...
sorriez if i sounded whiny again...though i had a good dae...i realli do... had a hearty breakfast, went for examz, watch a movie (take the lead, itz nice...u all shuld catch it too), had a nice dinner..and a first time out of ntu in like 2 weeks( though itz oni JP), and not to mention the great company for the movie n dinner (as alwaes :P)...afterall, i shouldnt be whining now ritE? itz the effect of the tequilla....i guess it is..aha...alcohol makes me think...and think of depressing things...pui~ but oh well..i'm a sadist in life...juz absolutely love torturing my brain with all the negativities... perhaps mabbe itz this...i could remain the person tt i wanna be... juz someone who can still see light in terms of darkness ( ya,..i got astigmatism, so can see the light....) ** pish**
but oh well...life juz sux when itz not ur own....
to end off with a quote from the movie..."Do you like ***? Den you are meant for it! " (fill in the *** with anything u like,...need not be 3 letters...duh >.<" )
