day 5 came and went... and everything's over...
i din know i can cry so much... and trying to hold back tears is damn hard... i tried to stay strong...but end up failing miserably... all the withheld emotions juz gushed thru like a floodgate tt opened... it's really sucky...
lotsa things happened in 5 days... passing of gramps... hospitalisation of grandma... to see things cock up during the wake... tensions build up and conflicts arose between siblings over small matters... it hurts... it realli hurts... and the worst thing is that i know that gramps has gone to join with dad... so they're both out there somewhere...
2 of the person who dotes on me most were gone... somehow tt does makes u wonder who's left...
during the procession....rained big time...muz be due to the mistakes that we make for the rites...din do this...din do tt...did so many things wrong...screwed up so many times... i guess even my gramp is unable to leave smoothly...that's why the rain...
but thanks to cw/ly/darren/stuart/kam/gan/th/mj/qing who took the time to come down... and glenn too... realli appreciate the company... to see a familiar face at such a difficult times does somehow allievate things abit...
"i guess this is it..."
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
11:57 PM
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Monday, May 26, 2008
many thanks to cat/zz... for the long dist care/concern...
realli appreciate it...
ur kind gesture realli touched me...
and thanks to all my frens here who encouraged me in this tough times...
thanks...
realli appreciate it...
ur kind gesture realli touched me...
and thanks to all my frens here who encouraged me in this tough times...
thanks...
12:53 AM
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Sunday, May 25, 2008
24/5/08...
a sucky day that took another dear one from me... my last grandpa left just lidat lei...
sombre day...
and i hate funerals so...
"cherish your dearest.... "
a sucky day that took another dear one from me... my last grandpa left just lidat lei...
sombre day...
and i hate funerals so...
"cherish your dearest.... "
12:03 AM
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Friday, May 23, 2008
ehh... guys and girls... monday...kuishinbo and jiao di an mo...
so far...th, me, darren...
who gian tell mi again...
tentative timing...
12 @ city hall mrt...
try not to be late as kuishinbo veri crowded ard 1230 one...
so far...th, me, darren...
who gian tell mi again...
tentative timing...
12 @ city hall mrt...
try not to be late as kuishinbo veri crowded ard 1230 one...
3:06 AM
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
another one of those nostalgics nite...
kinda missing the weather in LA, missing the hamburgers, pizzas and salads, missing the pinkberry yogurt, missing the beautiful UCLA campus, missing the movie premieres, missing the view of the pacific ocean, missing westwood, missing glenrock, missing the whole bunch of ppl, the mad foam party...
kinda missing the foc days of not sleeping, mad running in town, missing the cheerings, missing the stupid games that we played, missing the lousy food during camp time, missing all the fun and games....
kinda missing the hall days of dota-ing until morning, missing the half boil eggs with toast at only 1.50, missing the late nite suppers at ah fang and ah lian, missing the crazy birthday sabos, missing sneezing out loudly and wake everybody up, missing sitting on my ledge, missing 44, and missing the drinking sessions we had....
kinda missing almost everybody... from ppl in nbs, to the hall gang... to the folks of pyrius, phyxion... to the shiraz.... to the few nbs frens i kept til this days....
kinda hate this feeling of missing...
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and i think r/s is like a camp fire... to keep it burning, ppl have to feed it wood... to get it started...one muz have the correct setup and of course, sparks... everyone's are like fire wood... we each give ourselves to keep the flames burning...and of course, some burn bigger, and some burn bigger... but of course that comes at how much wood you feed it...
each of us have a limit to how much we could burn... for the bigger flames, it'll burn at a faster rate...for the smaller flames, it'll burn slower... and each time the flames is doused, it gets harder to relight it... and ya... there's no point to this portion actually... was juz some thots on the cab ride back home...
"which kind of fire are you burning yourself with..."
kinda missing the weather in LA, missing the hamburgers, pizzas and salads, missing the pinkberry yogurt, missing the beautiful UCLA campus, missing the movie premieres, missing the view of the pacific ocean, missing westwood, missing glenrock, missing the whole bunch of ppl, the mad foam party...
kinda missing the foc days of not sleeping, mad running in town, missing the cheerings, missing the stupid games that we played, missing the lousy food during camp time, missing all the fun and games....
kinda missing the hall days of dota-ing until morning, missing the half boil eggs with toast at only 1.50, missing the late nite suppers at ah fang and ah lian, missing the crazy birthday sabos, missing sneezing out loudly and wake everybody up, missing sitting on my ledge, missing 44, and missing the drinking sessions we had....
kinda missing almost everybody... from ppl in nbs, to the hall gang... to the folks of pyrius, phyxion... to the shiraz.... to the few nbs frens i kept til this days....
kinda hate this feeling of missing...
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and i think r/s is like a camp fire... to keep it burning, ppl have to feed it wood... to get it started...one muz have the correct setup and of course, sparks... everyone's are like fire wood... we each give ourselves to keep the flames burning...and of course, some burn bigger, and some burn bigger... but of course that comes at how much wood you feed it...
each of us have a limit to how much we could burn... for the bigger flames, it'll burn at a faster rate...for the smaller flames, it'll burn slower... and each time the flames is doused, it gets harder to relight it... and ya... there's no point to this portion actually... was juz some thots on the cab ride back home...
"which kind of fire are you burning yourself with..."
1:26 AM
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
this a little something that amused me quite a fair bit back in uni yr 2....
"regrets are made up of the things you know are unachievable and cannot let go..."
"regrets are made up of the things you know are unachievable and cannot let go..."
1:05 AM
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
as it's our very own 44 mr qing bdae.. th jioed us out for a gathering to kinda "celebrate" qing's bdae...and so, we went for a turkish meal yest nite... decent place at a decent charge... and they offer whole lotsa selections of kebab..
hummus with black seasme bread...
sofra kebab...
duno wat kebab is this...but think it's lamb
this plate of shitty looking thing is actualli the hummus
and my own plate...chef's kebab...assorted kebab on a plate...owning!
the number of ppl who turned up..
"cherish the simplest things in life..."
hummus with black seasme bread...
sofra kebab...
duno wat kebab is this...but think it's lamb
this plate of shitty looking thing is actualli the hummus
and my own plate...chef's kebab...assorted kebab on a plate...owning!
the number of ppl who turned up..
"cherish the simplest things in life..."
5:45 PM
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
had a pretty packed weekends...shoppings, musicals, meeting up with frens...been a pretty good weekend... but when weekdays come....reality sinks in...
gonna be a busy weekdaes ahead...lotsa things to clear... sian...sian...
been to a colleagues' gramp wake... even more sian...i dun like such things to be happening ard me.... i dunwan to be in the same shoes....
"why do they call it a wake when they can't ever wake up...."
gonna be a busy weekdaes ahead...lotsa things to clear... sian...sian...
been to a colleagues' gramp wake... even more sian...i dun like such things to be happening ard me.... i dunwan to be in the same shoes....
"why do they call it a wake when they can't ever wake up...."
11:42 PM
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Friday, May 09, 2008
School Joke
A first-grade teacher, Ms Tulip (Age 2 was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked," Boy, what is your problem?"
Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"
Ms Tulip had enough. She took Boy. to the principal's office. While Boy.
waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms Tulip he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed.
Boy. was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.
Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"
Boy: "9".
Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"
Boy: "36".
And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at Ms Tulip and tells her, "I think Boy can go to the third-grade. "
Ms Tulip says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions.
Can I ask him ?" The principal and Boy both agreed.
Ms Tulip asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?
Boy., after a moment "Legs."
Ms Tulip: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"
Boy: "Pockets."
Ms Tulip: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?
Boy: Coconut
Ms Tulip: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft And sticky? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Boy.
was taking charge.
Boy: Bubblegum
Ms Tulip: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...
Boy: Shake hands
Ms Tulip: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy: Yep.
Ms Tulip: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up.
I get wet before you do.
Boy: Tent
Ms Tulip: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has me first. The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Vodka peg.
Boy: Wedding Ring
Ms Tulip: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy: Nose
Ms Tulip: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.
Boy: Arrow
Ms Tulip: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy: Fire truck
Ms Tulip: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if u don't get it u have to use your hand.
Boy: Fork
Ms Tulip: What is it that all men have one of it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy: SURNAME
Ms Tulip: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is responsible for making love ?
Boy: HEART.
The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher, "Send this Boy to OXFORD UNIVERSITY EVEN I GOT THE LAST TEN QUESTION WRONG MYSELF"
A first-grade teacher, Ms Tulip (Age 2 was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked," Boy, what is your problem?"
Boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third-grade too!"
Ms Tulip had enough. She took Boy. to the principal's office. While Boy.
waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms Tulip he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave. She agreed.
Boy. was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.
Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"
Boy: "9".
Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"
Boy: "36".
And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at Ms Tulip and tells her, "I think Boy can go to the third-grade. "
Ms Tulip says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions.
Can I ask him ?" The principal and Boy both agreed.
Ms Tulip asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?
Boy., after a moment "Legs."
Ms Tulip: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"
Boy: "Pockets."
Ms Tulip: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?
Boy: Coconut
Ms Tulip: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft And sticky? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Boy.
was taking charge.
Boy: Bubblegum
Ms Tulip: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...
Boy: Shake hands
Ms Tulip: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy: Yep.
Ms Tulip: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up.
I get wet before you do.
Boy: Tent
Ms Tulip: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has me first. The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Vodka peg.
Boy: Wedding Ring
Ms Tulip: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy: Nose
Ms Tulip: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.
Boy: Arrow
Ms Tulip: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy: Fire truck
Ms Tulip: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if u don't get it u have to use your hand.
Boy: Fork
Ms Tulip: What is it that all men have one of it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy: SURNAME
Ms Tulip: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, & is responsible for making love ?
Boy: HEART.
The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher, "Send this Boy to OXFORD UNIVERSITY EVEN I GOT THE LAST TEN QUESTION WRONG MYSELF"
11:24 PM
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gotten a nice bdae card from hs liao..ahah... my 2nd handmade cards in like...25 yrs? hahaa... veri nicely made though..ahah...it's a monkey card lor...with a 3-d monkey head pop-up...ahhaa... thanks alot wor! ni you xin le~ ahhaa...
and now there's a big hoo ha over a fitness centre closure...and damn..tt fitness centre is mine lor! kns... now have to find ways to get back my money...argh... time to engage in wat singaporean do best...complain/complain and complain!
"I'm so lost without you...i came back too late, to say that i was so wrong..."
and now there's a big hoo ha over a fitness centre closure...and damn..tt fitness centre is mine lor! kns... now have to find ways to get back my money...argh... time to engage in wat singaporean do best...complain/complain and complain!
"I'm so lost without you...i came back too late, to say that i was so wrong..."
11:08 AM
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Sunday, May 04, 2008
decided to capture a list of my birthday presents received for this years...and of course to show off these presents that i got..ahaha...out of 10, i "received" like 4/10 stuffz on my wishlists.... that's a pretty darn good achievement i supposed..wahaha...and there's still more pressies coming from shanghai lor...ahahaa... dun think i'll ever forget pressies okiez..ahaha...
and thanks to the ppl who took time off to meet up over this weekend...great catching up with u all!
a pair of cuff links from ms xy~
the braun buffel wallet from the hall peepz... (eh kam... my bull more outstanding than yours lor..see..the bull so clear in the pic! but ya...mine no secret comparment..."
finally...my HGUC Nu Gundam!! WOOH~ thanks to myself...and darren who go with me to buy...
my brand new pair of asics running shoes..(worn 2x so far..ahhaha, and ya...bought by myself too...)
"it takes just that little to reignite that spark of life... "
and thanks to the ppl who took time off to meet up over this weekend...great catching up with u all!
a pair of cuff links from ms xy~
the braun buffel wallet from the hall peepz... (eh kam... my bull more outstanding than yours lor..see..the bull so clear in the pic! but ya...mine no secret comparment..."
finally...my HGUC Nu Gundam!! WOOH~ thanks to myself...and darren who go with me to buy...
my brand new pair of asics running shoes..(worn 2x so far..ahhaha, and ya...bought by myself too...)
"it takes just that little to reignite that spark of life... "
10:48 PM
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i guess sometimes... sux to be... someone... and yet... has no idea... like to be.... without ever... yourself.... you... wateva effort you... but.. no one realise.... hurts to be .... sometimes i think...
if only... care a bit more... be grateful... no... no one ever sees... and that's why... lies and deceits...
not speaking.... ignoring... helps in anything... and however... between us... it's only to be... and never... if only i can just... how much... damn... your life...
"everything that's unspoken is alwaes the root to misunderstanding..."
if only... care a bit more... be grateful... no... no one ever sees... and that's why... lies and deceits...
not speaking.... ignoring... helps in anything... and however... between us... it's only to be... and never... if only i can just... how much... damn... your life...
"everything that's unspoken is alwaes the root to misunderstanding..."
2:10 AM
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Saturday, May 03, 2008
first day of my midlife... work was bad...putting out fires, rushing thru reports... look thru excel til i'm pissed...damn... i need to train up on this shit man...
had dinner with zhiyong/guosheng..been sometime since i last seen them..and everyone has become different...
first nite... and i guesss..it's nites like this that makes us think... direction, goals, circumstances... wat contributes to me... i guess...all along...it's just mi...
"in darkest day, and blackest night...all we seek is a guiding light..."
had dinner with zhiyong/guosheng..been sometime since i last seen them..and everyone has become different...
first nite... and i guesss..it's nites like this that makes us think... direction, goals, circumstances... wat contributes to me... i guess...all along...it's just mi...
"in darkest day, and blackest night...all we seek is a guiding light..."
2:35 AM
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Thursday, May 01, 2008
firstly... many thanks to all the folks who made it down yest nite... i had a damn good time there... and had a bit too much to drinks of course...but i guess thats' the downside of being the birthday boy...ahhaa... thanks to cat, yp, ash, steph, alvin, kam, th, hh, gordan, gan, yw, pravin, mj, darren who all are willing to take their time off despite their busy schedule and meet up for the dinner /drinks...
and extra credits goes to kam, hh for sitting with me thru the merlion conversion course... hahaa... and of course cat for getting mi a veri nice present (exactly wat i wanted! wallet without coin pouch!!)
hahaha...and to little miss xy for the cuff links! ahhaa...
and thanks to the barclays folks who send mi their well wishes, too bad u folks can't make it down... and not forgetting the well wishes of karena, huishan, xueyu, cherin, zhuohao, jieying, liyee, stuart, zhiyong, angela, herry, agas, amanda, rong2, wanxin, joanie, siqi, sern, jasmine, cw and last but not least...lp...
thanks to all of you who remembered... i hope i din miss out anyone...oh well..at least i believe i din miss out anyone la...at least as of 23:59.. hahaa....
"and the clock strikes 12...the dream ends..."
and extra credits goes to kam, hh for sitting with me thru the merlion conversion course... hahaa... and of course cat for getting mi a veri nice present (exactly wat i wanted! wallet without coin pouch!!)
hahaha...and to little miss xy for the cuff links! ahhaa...
and thanks to the barclays folks who send mi their well wishes, too bad u folks can't make it down... and not forgetting the well wishes of karena, huishan, xueyu, cherin, zhuohao, jieying, liyee, stuart, zhiyong, angela, herry, agas, amanda, rong2, wanxin, joanie, siqi, sern, jasmine, cw and last but not least...lp...
thanks to all of you who remembered... i hope i din miss out anyone...oh well..at least i believe i din miss out anyone la...at least as of 23:59.. hahaa....
"and the clock strikes 12...the dream ends..."
11:54 PM
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