day 5 came and went... and everything's over...
i din know i can cry so much... and trying to hold back tears is damn hard... i tried to stay strong...but end up failing miserably... all the withheld emotions juz gushed thru like a floodgate tt opened... it's really sucky...
lotsa things happened in 5 days... passing of gramps... hospitalisation of grandma... to see things cock up during the wake... tensions build up and conflicts arose between siblings over small matters... it hurts... it realli hurts... and the worst thing is that i know that gramps has gone to join with dad... so they're both out there somewhere...
2 of the person who dotes on me most were gone... somehow tt does makes u wonder who's left...
during the procession....rained big time...muz be due to the mistakes that we make for the rites...din do this...din do tt...did so many things wrong...screwed up so many times... i guess even my gramp is unable to leave smoothly...that's why the rain...
but thanks to cw/ly/darren/stuart/kam/gan/th/mj/qing who took the time to come down... and glenn too... realli appreciate the company... to see a familiar face at such a difficult times does somehow allievate things abit...
"i guess this is it..."