i've come to a realization... i used to have the naive thinking that if i help ppl..they will help me when the time comes... apparently...it seems like this is not how the world work...
i've been used, been discarded, been ignored.. and still i refuse to give up believing in the goodness of ppl... at least in the last lecture by randy pausch, he said something like this... " you will find goodness in ppl if you look long enough"... well... i guess i did... it seems that i still dun see the goodness around... i think enough is enough... from now on.. it'll be be helping ppl that have helped me... and not help ppl believing they will help me... it totally dun work that way it seems...
work has been a roller coaster ride...and i'm preparing myself for a big confrontation at work too... this might just be a new turning point... either i'm going to get stuck being veri busy...or i'm going to be damn free... and to quote..."til further notice"...
i'm not gonna sae aniting much for tt matter now... those who knew will know... and thanks for the support when i'm down...
spent much of my leave trying to mod my kampfer... my wips are uploaded in the other gundam blog.. trying to rush it for the upcoming BAKUC too.. hopefully this is gonna be a good exposure for me...
while waiting for a bus the other day... i've thought up for something too...
it seems that life is like waiting for a bus...this only applies to trips that are walkable only...
sometimes when u are waiting for a bus... you'll decide if you are gonna walk home or if u are waiting for the feeder service...first bus comes, not yours... you'll start thinking that it might be faster if u just walk home... however, being hopeful.. u''ll tell yourself you'll wait for the next bus that comes... however, the next bus that comes is still not yours.. and you'll start to regret...if only you have walked just now... but now you have committed your time to waiting already, walking off now will only waste the time you have waited...
and thus..you are caught in between... the feelings of regrets..and the feelings of wasting your time... you can't make up your mind in choosing to walk or continue to wait... i think this might be a situation some ppl might come across... and yeah..i do find myself in such situation often....without any idea on wat to do....
after thinking this thru...i guess my conclusion is....walk if your bus is not here... it's not economical to take bus now if you can walk since bus fares have increased... **bish**
"in life, we dun alwaes make the choices...sometimes we are the choices..."
