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Friday, February 29, 2008
10 things you duno abt me...

10 things you dunno abt me...

1. my max threshold for waiting is half hr...

2. i have trusting issues

3. i dun believe in love at first sight

4. i rather ppl be honest than lie...

5. i cry fairly easily while watching animes/dramas

6. i dun think i can drink as much as i say i could

7. i like a regimental lifestyle

8. i hate ppl to sae my face is bigger/rounder

9. i'm only generous to frens

10. i have troubles listing 10 things ppl duno abt me...


"only say things when you meant it... otherwise ppl will never take your word for it..."

10:20 PM


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Thursday, February 28, 2008
pissed

i hate to wake up in the morning feeling pissed...
i hate it when i dream of bad things in the morning...
i hate it losing...
i hate damn a lot of things....

"feeling like a spoilt brat beyond repair..."

11:15 AM


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Tuesday, February 26, 2008
expectations

we all look forward to something...learn to expect something...
so...what is it that i really expected and look forward to...

"the only thing that stays eternal is greed.. "

1:34 AM


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Sunday, February 24, 2008
ZGMF-X20A Strike Freedom



what's more to say...apart from officially mine...

"it takes discipline to make a interest into a habit, a love into passion, a life into a lifestyle.."

7:06 PM


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Saturday, February 23, 2008
dreams and reality...

well... dreams and reality is often a veri common theme in anime...and knowing wat a sucker i am for animation...normalli animations are the inspiration for some of my weird and cranky philosophy... and this is just another of those times....

was watching magical lyrical girl nanaho a's ...ya..it's a mouthful... but as its something recommended by my bro..so i watched it anyhow... and yes..it got me thinking again...

will you choose to be trapped in a eternal slumber but with your deepest desire and wishes fulfilled...living the happiest life you can never achieve in reality, and be with the person you hold dearest til all of eternity.. or will you choose to still struggle on in the real world...dealing with the loss of your dear one...living a life of regretting some of the bad decision that you made previously...

which would it be... it's a tempting option rite... to be able to live veri happily in a dream...a dream which everything goes your way...and you no need to be sad, worried or everything...you just gotta sleep...and ignore everything that's going on... afterall, everyone's entitled to their own happiness... and choosing this little happiness without hurting anyone ain't such a bad choice afterall... who would want to live a life of regrets/pain and simply wishing things would go their way and hoping everything will not go wrong...

though for mi...i guess i will still try to live in the real world...it's tougher...it's harder..and it's much less happier... but happiness is in a state of mind... regrets are the feelings that reminds you not to make further mistakes... and pain are a reminder that you are in the real world... i rather hold something with my hands...than just having it in my mind... i guess i'm materialistic afterall...

"看不见你的笑我怎能睡得着...."

7:33 PM


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Friday, February 22, 2008
invisible man...



无论你肯或不肯
我都选择等
等到你结束好久
探险的旅程
要是没有寂寞陪衬
没有途中的灰尘
你怎会向往家门
你越是想要诚恳
其实越残忍
伪装不了你对我
漠视的眼神
你不许我听信永恒
不许我迷信我们
不许我奋不顾身
多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
我想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

朋友都于心不忍
责备我愚蠢
但他们都回避我
执着的眼神
可知我对爱的虔诚
可知我迷信我们
可知我难得放任

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
我想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
我想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

11:33 PM


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Wednesday, February 20, 2008
dreams...dreaming...

having disturbed slp...been dreaming and dreaming damn weird dreams... alwaes wake up in the middle of the nite before going back to slp again....mabbe itz the morning shift...mabbe i cannot rest my brain...wateva the case...itz not good...damn...

past few daes of work was pretty good...with month end coming..been chasing...and getting results...and tt's alwaes good...hope that this month will be a betta month... foresee greater challenges in the work place soon...

"for every excuses that i found... there can only be one underlying reason..."

11:22 PM


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Monday, February 18, 2008
make love...not war...

these are the songs that are quite meaningful....contrasting lyrics between love and war...

"Dear Mr. President"

(feat. Indigo Girls)

Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?


"The Rest Of My Life"
Blessed Union of Soul

I know you're heard the excuses before
So I won't waste your time and I'll keep this short
I've bound my emotions 'cause I can't afford to be wrong
I know we've talked about being good friends
So we've been real careful of the signals we've sent
But all of your glances they came and the went to my head
And I'm not a man to throuw words to the wind
When I said "I love you" that's what I meant
And I plan to show you if it takes me the rest of my life
The rest of my life
The rest of my life
I don't want to rush this cause my greatest fear
is taking for granted what's taken us years
To build from the ground up with all of the tears that we cried
We've taken our time and for this I'm so glad
Now we can be sure that this moment will last
We've traveled a road of mistakes in our past to get her
And I'm not about to throw words to the wind
When I said "I love you" that's what I meant
And I'm going to show you if it takes me the rest of my life
The rest of my life
The rest of my life
And I'm not a man to throw words to the wind
When I said "I love you" well, that's what I meant
And I plan to show you if it takes me the rest of my life



"think of something that's worst off and things will naturally be better..."

10:25 PM


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Sunday, February 17, 2008
of life and living...

finalli managed to kick my own ass into going for a jog just now.... had a slow 2 round...and seriously... stamina is worse than before le..damn..at this rate gonna be hard to pass ippt...time to shape up and buck up laio....

somebody told me that they learn things abt life from mi... haha...kinda surprised me a little.. lol...i never knew there was things abt me that can be learnt and inspire ppl...ahhaa..but oh well...at least i live a wen xin wu kui life...

was watching round the world in 80 days just now... kinda inspired me to set some target for places i wanna see... hopefully within 10 yrs i can clear at least half of them... for now...these are the places i most wanted to see...

1. walk the great world of china
2. climb up mt fuji (to mid at least)
3. explore the sphinx
4. pray at the vatican church
5. scuba dive at great barrier reef
6. visit rome
7. sail down venice in a gondola...

"there are things to life that far outweighs yourself..."

9:37 PM


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eyes on me...eyes on you...

came across this in youtube... for those who played FF8 before... this ending won't be unfamiliar to you...

it's kinda rare to find such romance in a RPG game...and add a super duper sweet song to it... you got a perfect ending for a RPG...



"did you ever know i had my eyes on you..."

1:43 AM


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Saturday, February 16, 2008
L

after a veri long while...finalli found my way back into the cinema to catch a movie again... wanted to watch sweeny todd...but too bad there's oni the morning show..and ended up watching L:change the world instead... it's a spin off from deathnote... but still i find it a pretty entertaining watch on a fri nite... if u expecting a lot of ryuk or wat...hard luck...it's all about L and how he save the world...
recommended by me ba...
upcoming movies to watch: jumper, sweeny, leap years

"i think i might just want to live on longer..."

2:34 PM


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Thursday, February 14, 2008
vdae, wee day...frenship day...

happy vdae folks! for all those with dates...hope it was a good one ar...ahah ... for those without..try harder next yr ba...

went to the zouk winebar yest nite with my colleagues...had a pretty good time looking at the crowd... and the senseless chit chat with the bunch of guys...ahah...was out and oni reached home at 5am la...balls... haha...but it was fun too...

slpt n slpt the whole of todae... plaed psp, comp, and watch some vcds... pretty slack day for mi too...oh...and i've made a new fren todae...

to glorify international frenship day...me n cenwei decide to intro a fren to each other...lol... so kudos! new fren found..

"the road maybe long...the hills maybe steep... but the heart runs eternal..."

11:36 PM


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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
movies galore...

wat do u do when there's no one to watch movie with you... watch it online/rent vcds to watch at home... list of titles that i watched in the past few daes...

1. CJ7
2. Kungfu dunk
3. Warlords
4. Guess who
5. Stomp the yard
6. The condemned

but i still like to watch movies in the cinema...ahh...

"you just gotta fight harder..."

2:33 AM


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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
CNY

had a cny gathering at my house...it was good... alot of ppl turn up...honestly, thanks to all of you who made a effort to come down..i know my house abit ulu... hopefully..the food was good enuf... and hope u all had fun... and here's a foto so show how mani ppl turn up... and dun worry zz and jas...you're with us still... to those whom are unable to turn up..dun worriez...i stilll miss u all too...



"life's so much betta with frens... frens are so much betta without lies..."

2:06 AM


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Sunday, February 10, 2008
bad...just bad...

been waking up to a series of bad dream recently... it just left me feeling awful and irritated....every morning when i wake up...there's just this sucky feelings rite at the pit of my stomach... and tt led me to be veri grouchy... knn... i damn hate this feeling of greyness...

"dun bend dun break and dun back down.."

3:43 PM


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Friday, February 08, 2008
CNY...

aha...it's CNY again... first day of CNY todae...everyone had a great reunion dinner i supposed.... mine wasnt' fantastic... had it oni with my mom cuz my fantastic bro went out to shop for new yr clothes unknowingly that all shops are closed half day... and so he made a wasted trip to see ppl close shop... CNY basically isn't much for mi... juz some visiting...some card gaming... and as alwaes.... it's oni between my both paternal/maternal gramps house...

i feel quite distance from my maternal side relatives...nothing much in common to talk abt...or mabbe perhaps everyone is either married/have kids/too young... tt's why nothing much in common to talk abt with me... but for paternal side...all the aunts are alwaes more frenly..and cousins too are ard my generation... so there's alwaes more fun at the paternal end...

i think i'm slowly evolving into a person like my father liao... some of my aunt actualli said the way i behave and protray myself is veri similar to my dad... i think of tt as a compliment of course...ahhaa.. afterall, he's somene who devote his life ( and i realli meant tt literally) to the family... and tt's how a real man should be imo...

aha...and my bro recommend mi a site to plae some online dai dee and mahjong..so if u all got the cravings but hate to lose actual money...ya can go www.viwawa.com to try out some of the games there... fast loading, simple concept... easy for ppl to chase some boredom out of your life...

damn...tml muz work...ahh...sux... but oh well..ppl..try to make it for the monday steamboat okiez? dun let lecturers/fyp/bf/gf/cells to stop u from coming! seeya all on monday!

"when the sun goes down and the moon comes up... i'm left shining on..."

1:00 AM


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Monday, February 04, 2008
lips of an angel...

somehow...i think this is one hell of a zao sai song...the lyrics...the feel...it is a zao sai song la! but i love this song too...esp the way the singer vibrate like a zombie...



Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

"better late than never... better ever than late... "

10:22 PM


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Sunday, February 03, 2008
a simple act...

sometimes..a simple act like this is good enuf to know that i'm still remembered...



thanks zz and jas!

"another Saturday has come and gone away..."

9:45 PM


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solitary

been watching this reality show called solitary on tv... it's about keeping ppl in isolated cells....testing their limits...and it kinda work likes a psychology test... .
initialli they are given some info abt their opponents...and they will be put thru extreme challenges alone...the psychology of being alone...and the pressure of clearing challenges...being made to rembr number sequences while deprived of slp and warmth...all these stuffz..i doubt i will last veri long...
but it kinda got me thinking of how will i survived in this world all alone... and tt's abit like "i am legend".. if i'm the last guy...i think i'll kill myself le ba... join the whole gang...

and my unicorn is near completion liao...left a coat of white to spray...and some fine tuning plus decal and top coat left...can make it for CNY! yay! my 95% effort work will finally be displayed soon! wahahaa...

din had a smooth week at work too..started hearing things liao... ppl leaving...and the politics that embroiled in the office... and yes..there's office politics everywhere...each trying to outdo, outstab, and out climb each other...i guess tt's office version of survivor ba... the most ruthless and cunning survive... will i survive this game...i thing i have 3000 plus more days to know...

CNY is here...but somehow...the mood still din hit me... ah well..at least i have the steamboat to look forward to...

"欲言又止..."

2:46 AM


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Saturday, February 02, 2008

原来, 一个人在雨天慢走...并非是件坏事...
淋着天空降下的细雨...任由它打在身上...意外的心旷神怡...
随即吹来的冷风...也不及心中的寒...
雨水靡蒙了双眼...把世界也看得额外美丽...
音乐的响起...驱走了一切感觉...
距离的远近...也似乎不在是个问题...
在来往的交通间...
我还是得一个人的走下去....

"尽所能而为之, 尽其心而对之..."

9:20 AM


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