sometimes, i realised it's easier to be selfish...okiez...mabbe not easier...but u'll start to have more motivation when u do things for ur ownself instead of doing it for others... when u know it's for ur own self, u'll tend to push harder, be more consistent and not give up doing certain things so easily... whereas when u are doing it for others, u'll simply quit and give up cause u know u will not be the one being affected by it much.... so is it reali worth it to be selfish and just do things for urself? i guess it's worth it...
keeping ppl outside my world, my train of thoughts, my innermost feelings... i prevent ppl from entering the sadness in the world i see, i feel and experience... why let others be unhappy when there's only need for 1 person to be unhappy... isolation dun really matters much when u can keep yourself occupied... and u know it's all for your own good... and mabbe for the good of others... or mabbe it's for self protection...
some frens do ask me, why do i not share my thoughts, and sometimes i keep lotsa things unsaid... ain't it hard on myself that way since i do not share problems etc?? and i do know for a fact that frens will be willing to share ur problems and help out...at least true frens does... but to load others with my prob, nah..no way... not my style.. everyone has their fair share of probs, why bother others with my own... and letting ppl know your probs, your thoughts...seems to put urself at a vulnerable position where it's easy to be exploited...
perhaps, i need more self protection than i think...
friends are like leaves, found everywhere...
real friends are like diamonds, precious and rare...
but to find someone, whom i bare my soul...
you complete me, and make me whole...
"in life, numbers ain't that important after all..."
MOTD: moody
