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chinese new year is just round the corner...somehow...i still can't feel the festivity...tried to immerse myself with a couple of chinese new year dinner, lao a few yu sheng... but yet...somehow still feel missing... or rather...somebody has been missing...
my frenz also have been going thru a few rough patches in life... relationship problemz...sch work...hall conflicts...parents squabbling n nagging...haiz... does all new year have to end in such a unhappy manner... and will the new year realli bring improvement?? i duno too...somehow...life is kinda sucky nowadaes eh...
ah lian commented my life has become a bit too routine... abit like robot...yeah...and i think she has a point...my life now involve waking up, going sch, proj meeting, return hall to nap, play darts, dinner, proj, run, sleep and the cycle goes on... there ain't realli much form of entertainment or anything else... yeah..this sux..but wat to do... if u wanna improve in things, u gotta sacrifice...i've alwaes believe u muz work a certain level to achieve anything at all...and to achieve wat i want..life is wat i'm willing to sacrifice... juz keep training in my head and chiong all the way...set a target n juz wade thru the difficulties towards achieving it... determined? perhaps...but i guess itz more of pure stubborn-ness and refusal to quit...
i oso duno wat i rambling abt liaoz...got acc2 tml..shall go lie on the bed to clear my confused head... nitez ppl....
oh..Happy Chinese New year...

"The most successful ppl are the ones that sacrifice the most without ppl knowing it"

well... i guess the saying that ppl oni knows how to treasure others when they lost them is really true... oni when u face the reality of the person no longer will be part of ur life...den u will realli sit up n reflect on wat u had done or rather, wat u had failed to do... sometimes...tt's the sad reality of life... but isn't the realising a mistake and correcting it a good thing??

haizzz...but i guess sometimes in life...itz juz tt diff to give chances for ppl to make amends... itz true that chances have to be grab and fight for...but doesn't the willingness to change and make things rite warrant another chance to be given... somehow, wat's right wat's wrong, wat should be done, wat shouldn't be done has already lost itz meaning...especially now that things has already come to such a juncture... no wonder ppl always wish they could turn back time... i wish i could too...there's so many things that i could make things right... i could have shown more appreciation towards ppl around me, shown more love towards parents, all the nitty gritty things that i could make it better....but i guess itz kinda pointless... all those nitty gritty stuffz will be oni become regrets...

as i went home last fri...saw my mom suffering from achings all over..and i realise tt...time has started to catch up with her laioz...she has been a great mom thru these years...and in times of hardship and darkness, she has taken over the responsibility of bringing up mi n my bro... perhaps itz not in my nature to show love...but still, and yes... she's my motivation behind alot of stuffz i do... and of course..i do l**e her... to all those out there...cherish ur parents...esp ppl in my generation...time's running out...eventualli the dae will come and do enjoy the company of ur parents...

and to a certain someone... dude...take care... frenz will ride out this storm with u... and i will too, even though i can't realli swim... i'm with u...

last but not least, dedicated to u dude...

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

kinda long since i last update..sorriez ppl if u have been waiting..though i guess not much... but been real busy ever since sch starts...trying to meet up with frenz juz before the sem starts officially...den all the courseworks that sets in already...den with FAP, FOC and everi little bit of stuffz that comes in...life suddenly has become hectic...everyday has juz become trying to catch wateva sleep i can...going to sch...balancing between training for my IPPT and darts and other hall stuffz...brrr...tis kinda life is sucky...my time become other ppl times...argh...

and the rain is so not making it easier...everydae is cold..cloudy...and none of those rainy morning i can get to sleep in cuz of all my 830 lessons...wat the...haizz... think this gonna be a sem like this liaoz..endure endure...

been watching blood+...a jap anime if u all duno wat it is...yeahz...like itz name...itz kinda bloody...but itz nice nonetheless...juz finish a episode with tears in my eyes...haiz... envy the female lead who have such good family to support her and share her load...haiz... okiez..gotta not think along this...otherwise it will be another melancholic day...

tml mabbe going sentosa for recce...mabbe...but i guess itz gonna be another rainy day ba...haizz.... yeah..tt's all for now..chinese new year coming le...may all of u have a bountiful harvest...

Krav
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