Friday, October 28, 2005
mourning...
my oldest hamster juz passed on todae... her name's baby... she was ok yest...and this morning..but after lunch..she juz stop moving...and left us... had her since 1 yr plus ago... and now she's gone...gave her a burial..offer her a cigarette instead of incense... juz a little something to accompany her on her last trip... sianz for the rest of todae...
i guess i'm not cut out to be a pet owner..everytime a pet dies...i feel shattered..hate tt feeling... shall not keep pets anymore...
10:13 PM
stress....
STRESSED?? OR DESSERTS ?hmmm...seems this is a period of stress for alot of ppl... examz are juz round the corner...everyone mugging hard... this period of examz is especially tough for lotsa ppl... ppl are stressed over results, ppl are stressed over cannot finish studying, ppl are stress over not enuf time, ppl are stressed over no time to spend with their loved ones... hmmm...but somehow, all the these seems to link to one think...ie: stress over time... everyone wish for more time...but no matter how hard u schedule ur workload..time will never be enuf...even if u are given 36 hrs in a day, you will alwaes want more n more...tts' juz the nature of humans...we dun get satisfied... itz this unsatisfaction that drives us to want more n more out of life...
true...it is a good thing...it motivates ppl... otherwise ppl will juz be alwaes stagnant n refused to move on in life... but however...unsatisfaction breed stress...and stress will leads to all sort of problems...
ppl will be unsatisfied with the time their loved ones spend with them...den they want more attention n more time...and the other party will stress...stress leads to tempers...tempers lead to arguments...arguments leads to breakups...bad ending for both...lotsa problems happened due to unstatisfaction...no doubt, no one can be truly contented with everything and not want more...itz in human to want more... but however...learning to curb ur desires seems to be a good way out of this loop... by compromising on ur wants...perhaps life will be a happier one... and i dun mean curb desires by abstaining frm sex, liquor, cigarettes etc... i'm not a holy person..i dun smoke, f**k around or wat, but i do drink quite a fair bit...as long as no one get hurts, it ain't a bad thing to be doing..no abstaining frm liquor here....
but maybe, just maybe...if pple can see wat they want out of life more wholistically, life will be happier...and i hate to see unhappy ard me...cuz their unhappiness sure will rub off me...so to all my frenz...stae happy ok? if not for me, then stae happy for urself~!! jiayou n guanyin bao you...
4:56 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
more horoscopes..
• 基本性格
金牛座男性个性温和顺从，喜爱和平，崇尚和睦，性格沉稳，总是三思而后行。对人对事态度慎重，趋于保守，固执且一根筋，常会被人称作不懂变通的顽固派。极具韧性，只要是自己认准的事情，不管多大的困难也要坚持到底。有较强的责任感，对同事有深厚的友情，但由于对事情多计较，会遭到朋友的误解。平时温文尔雅，但一旦动怒，却又令人望而生畏。对于金牛座男性而言，一定要拿捏准何时应针锋相对，何时应退让一步，盲目的勇敢有时会惹来大祸。
• 注意点
所到之处，足以令其蓬荜生辉，但有时会因为意见相左而引起不和，所以一定要适度地表现出宽容的雅量。不要只顾眼前利益，只有学会用长远眼光看待人生，才能成就大业。节约和节制固然重要，但如果为人过于吝啬，即便是投入很大也换不来好名声，只会遭到人们的反感。
• 职业和金钱
金牛座男性缺乏果敢和冒险精神，可能会因此而错过许多良机，处世时应切记这一点。虽然开拓精神不足，但有很强的直觉力，如果借助于此脚踏实地安稳的开展事业，定会获得成功。如果你是金牛座，学习专业技术是最佳的选择。由于缺乏冒险精神，在尝试新事物上会有些难度，但因为你偏重感性，有较强的直觉和与生俱来的艺术天分，如果成为专业人士或某个领域的佼佼者，人生会过得很惬意。
适合的具体职业有作家、画家、儿童文学家、设计师、食品制造、出版行业、金融业等，最好长时间地投入某个领域，如果在企业供职，则以总务、劳务、策划等管理职务和技术研究职务为优先考量，秘书职业也很有前途。(see twin..i tell u i will become a CEO liaoz..dun believe me..hehe(
走财运的年龄是26、33、42、51、60岁，最好在30岁到40岁之间成就事业。
• 恋爱和婚姻
金牛座男性爱得深情款款，温情脉脉，安静温和的特质具有让人内心舒适的神奇魅力。爱情运很好，但不会走桃花运，平凡的婚姻生活也需要经济实力作后盾。作为金牛座，你的身上还保留着孩童般的纯真和浮躁，希望和年长的女性谈恋爱。金牛座男性很少会因为盲目的爱情或冲动的情欲而损害身体，大多都是以结婚为大前提开始恋爱。在性生活方面缺乏自制力，有时会不分时间和场所的亢奋起来，热衷于性爱，对同性恋也有兴致。性格固执，警戒心强，占有欲和嫉妒心超过一般水准，所以一定要学会宽宏大量。(mmm...dun think i like guys...this part wrong)
理想的结婚对象是摩羯座、处女座女性，年龄最好相差6岁左右，同龄者和年长者也不错。24、33岁时会遇到最佳伴侣，适宜晚婚，另外相亲促成的婚姻比自由恋爱婚姻更为理想。你看女性的眼光不够准，难以区分爱情和同情心，所以选择结婚对象时，最好向身边的亲友寻求帮助。
(ah ha...24 years old will meet the "ONE"...lol...and itz a capri or virgo..muz pay attention to them liao...lol... nah..no match making for me...)
• 健康和疾病
步入中年之后，要特别注意因荷尔蒙和脏器功能的衰退引起的糖尿病和肾病，酒少喝无妨，但一定要戒烟。咽喉和食道的疾病会危及生命，而肾病和泌尿系统疾病会带来极大的痛苦，所以应当定期进行检查。(heng i never smoke...but kidney probz..mmm...muz take note..dunwan to rely on NKF ar..)
7:46 AM
Monday, October 24, 2005
sick...sianz...
been down with stomach flu for the past 3 daes...sianz...hurts like hell...saw doc twice oso...and it still hurts...though not as much le...it machiam feels like i ate the duan chang cao (rotting intestine grass)... reali is ^&^%(^$%$#...ouch...stupid pain acting up...shall stop blogging n go rest...bleahz
12:00 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
my horoscope....how true...
你出生的时候，天上的火星（Mars）位在金牛座19度，落在你的命盘中的第5宫（恋爱宫）。这个相位对你的影响如下： 你跟老婆，一个脾气差，常生气，另一个则好很多。想知缘由，详尽解析告诉你。... 你是个好强又有点缺乏自信的人...
你是个容易想太多的人...
你是个得失心重的人...
你不适合做台面上的人物，在职场上你常扮演幕后推手的角色...
你的任务注定是自主性强，独立性强的，而且你具有独当一面的能耐...
你的老婆天生劳碌命，每天都有忙不完的事...
年纪越大，你的生活作息会变的深居简出... 你的一生之中，常会省小钱，花大钱买贵重的东西，此命格其实是受到父母的影响...
你挺会赚钱，但也很会花钱...
当你的任务资历累积到一定程度之后，赚钱的能耐就会出现了...
越是授权，越是能自由发挥的任务环境，老婆越是容易发...
你的职场生涯常是一种工作一做做很久...
你一生的恋情次数少，也不顺遂...这其实跟幼时环境有关...
你的任务跟新单位、新部门，甚至是新公司较有缘...
常换工作对你不利，甚至会让你一事无成...
你所从事的任务注定与在校好友的很不一样...
你婚后的家庭生活，步调紧凑，难得悠闲惬意...
你的工作有着“一忙起来便没完没了”的特性…
你是个有主见的人…不喜欢别人管你、干涉你…
你的工作常有需要限时完成的压力…
你跟老婆两人的脾气很不相同… 你常会因工作而有所牵绊…
2:08 AM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
the most impt and hardest thing...
hmmm...been hearing about the same problems from a few of my frenz lately...all of them having frenship woes... be it due to distance, or lack of communcation...but recently...i can sense the unhappiness that shrouded them...
ppl can ask, wat's the most diff thing that ppl can maintain.. some would answer a relationship, but to me, i guess the most diff thing to maintain is frenship... in relationship, u oni maintain this with r/s with one person at any one time...if a person have many relationship at the same time...ok...itz their life... but frenship works the otherway round... you muz maintain...ok..not realli a must but rather up to the individual... it's many frenships maintaining at the same time...this would be more time consuming than a relationship... juz imagine...the more we progress in our life...the more frenz we should have...
after going thru pri sch, sec sch, jc, army, uni....up til now, how many frenz should we have? normalli, the ppl who are the frenliest would be those at the same stage of life at u...for example, sec sch days would be ur sec sch frens..army would be ur army frenz... but who realli takes a effort to maintain the previous frenships?? bit by bit...all these frenz slowly faded away...slowly they become aquaintaince.... and slowly..they become strangers... come to think of it...isn't a veri sad thing that the once "good" or "best" frenz slowly becomes strangers...? doesn't frenship transcend time and space ? i do wonder...
mabbe itz cause ppl dun take effort to maintain frenship ba...itz veri diff to spread out times between all the frenz that u have...esp into the other circles of frenz that differs from u now...you need to spend time with ur current frenz...and you need to find time to spend with ur "old" friends... sometimes this thing is kinda diff to do eh..one might arge...where will have enough time to spend...if i spend all these time on frenz, wat abt my bf/gf?? mabbe tt's one danger of getting attached....at the end of it all, you're oni left with ur bf/gf.... but juz think...a day in a year might just be sufficient to keep that old frenship of yours burning throughout the life...juz a couple of hours in a year... that's not too much to commit to a fren rite?? i'm sure a fren surely deserved more time out in a year from you.. after all, you all are fren after all... after all among the billions and billions of ppl in this world, you both have met n gotten to know each other n become frenz...so i guess itz a fate that brings the both of u tog.... so i guess, the bottom line is ...treasure your fren..."to meet is due to fate, to last is up to you"
4:41 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005
早晨的孤魂
太阳再次升高,
驱走月亮的笼罩.
晨曦的阳光,
照耀这大地,
点亮了无数人生.
躲在黑暗角落的我,
排斥太阳的光明.
习惯了黑暗的寂静,
厌倦了阳光的虚伪.
属于影子的我,
孤独躲在黑暗,
回避着阳光.
远离种种的喧嚣,
沉浸在夜的沉寂,
依然守护着你,
默默的望着你,
保护着你....
6:44 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
alot of things that are left unsaid or undone...
recently saw my fren nick...which do u regret most...regreting the things that u have said, or regreting the things that you should have said...hmmm...i choose the latter...
well...things that u have said = definite reply and definite ending...therefore there's lesser room for regret...but things that u have not said are definitely more regretful than things you have said i guess... oh well...but most things are easier said than done...but oh well...juz live with it...life is beautiful coz of regrets one..
oh well..examz are round the corner too...sheesh...but somehow..this sem i feel veri relax...haah...mabbe coz my core not tt siong...got the pressure to do well..cuz i had enuf of lousy grades..but some how tt dun push mi to work harder...am still counting day by day...haa... mabbe i need a shock into working harder ba...i think like things like if i get A den gimme a 1000 bucks would work suffice...haa...anyone volunteer??
itz nite....and itz a warm nite...sianz....recent weather sux...humid n warm...hate it totalli...haiz....wish to hide in a aircon room but oh well...hall no such place...gotta make do with my fan...haa...but hall realli damn fun...lol...todae had a mad hair cutting session...lol...we help a fren cut his p***c hair...and his armpit hair...muahhahaha....it was so shiok...haa...laugh til i almost die from stitches....it was some comic relief within the exam stress...i'm so glad to live in 44...
4:27 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
updates...
hmmm....shall do abit of updates...
Fri
sneak off to watch "never been older"...a chinese show starring andy lau...normally i wunt watch chinese show in the cinemas one, cuz i alwaes think itz a waste of money..but this time round...i'm glad i watch it... the show is a super touching...inspiring...and meaningful one rolled in one... at the end of the show...the ending leave me n my frenz all tearing uncontrollably..haha...so paiseh... but oh well...itz a nice show nonetheless...
Sat
went out for a bout of KTV...been quite some time since i last went for KTV too...haah...it was quite fun... had a fun time singing all the duets song..haha....well..shall endure til after examz before the next ktv trip....
Life is a one way trip
there ain't any way to change it
live it to the fullest
or regret it forever...
8:21 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
frequency....
Frequency.........watch the show frequency on vcd...found it kinda interesting...hate the ending though...mmmm.... i hate it when he can successfully change the past and make his present a happy one...such things aren't supposed to happen... itz juz plain unfair... by altering a person past, mabbe things can be made rite...but still...it shouldn't be allowed to stae right.... he shouldn't be able to save his dad n his whole family...it should end like butterfly effect... haiz...
i wish i could alter the past too...mabbe i'll be a whole new person? better? or worse?? i realli dunno..but most probably..i won't be worst off than now ba...
examz coming around in a months time...letz hope i can do well...aspire to get at least all b's...shall work on it...ciaoz...
5:16 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
fuck up....
had a nap todae...had a dream tt spoils my dae totali...ended up feelign veri fuck up...
dreamt of wat happened last time... itz juz something tt i dunwan it to happen againz...damnz it... shall not talk abt it ...except tt it is fuck up...
12:46 AM
