my brain has been overworking... it has been working and working throughout the nite...thinking of endless possibilities...endless outcome to a niggling prob... i dunno why is there such a probz when there is nothing much to it anyway...it should have been a thing of the past...but some stuffz juz can't be easily forgotten i guess... much as i would like to...if it matters to u..you wont want to forget...and sometimes...it juz matters too damn much..tt's why it has became a pain in ur heart...but knowing u'll eventualli kill urself with the pain...u refuse to let it go... guess i'll juz die with the pain in my heart ba...heart attack...
am physicalli back at home..but mentali..i'm lost... i have no idea where i should be...wat i should be doing... sometimes is like mabbe to be permenantly in slumber seems like a way out...itz escapism..but still...itz a escape... and home is supposed to be a sanctuary where ppl can find solace...apparently...itz not so to me...not at this point of time... mind is a big whirr...clicking, clanking forever...tormenting me with constant nitemares... guess mabbe tt's why i resort to drinking... used to think tt drinking should oni be for the correct reasons... and tt's celebration...but now...i dun see aniting worth celebrating... somehow the world has become greyish n lost itz color...sianz... i dun think i pressed any buttons to make my world in greyscale...but its juz so...damnz..damnz damnz...i feel depressed..i wish i can tell u everything...but i juz cant...argh...
Cravings: You
Desire: Peace
Philosophy: Ctrl + Shift + U ( tt's shortcut for desaturation of foto in photo..make it black n white)
