Wednesday, July 27, 2005
frustrations VS pent up anger...
damn it...what if u find out ppl had been lying to you...WHAT IF U FIND OUT TT BEHIND UR BACK, PPL HAVE BEEN BACKSTABBING YOU ALL THE WHILE...now then i know the pain in my back is not from the burdens i have shouldered, but itz from the stabs that ppl knifed at the back... itz juz tt damn fucking irritating... okiez...so being nice doesn't pay at all...or at least tt's wat i refused to believe.... but not now...being nice = ppl will take u for granted.... ppl will tend to ride on you to their destination...fucking hell.... i guess i muz be mean n nasty le... no matter how nice ppl get..why can't ppl just appreciate niceness and not take it for granted...itz juz tt damn irritating...or mabbe irritating is not strong enuf to express....i guess no word can fit it too... mabbe i'll juz do wat i do alwaes...fuck it~
10:14 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
i love phyxion
aah...**huge** sigh of relieve... FOC finally over...my job as a CGL is finally done...and yeah...phyxion did it again...once againz..the best clan trophy is back in my room.. no doubt, this is a huge bonus to the camp.. but the most impt thing tt i gotten from this camp is the spirit that ignite in them...
wanting ten over ppl to bond in 6 days is no easy task, and FOC is juz the catalyst that sparks things off... all the snrs are just facilitators in the process of bringing them into the big happy family... credit goes out to many ppl here..and here i shall list them all in...
first of all, the main commers... all the programmers who put in effort to make the camp fun filled, and all the facilitating of the camp so that it runs smoothly...
to yiwei, gordan and guowei...the 3CGLs, for controlling their clans well so that in the end no disharmony was achieved... for this year we have no need to push the jnrs and everything was left to the jnr pace...
to all my GLs: Kamz, fer his neverending spark of stupid ideas tt totaly amused the jnrs and keep them entertained; HH, for being my pack animal and help carry all the jnrs load; Cat, for keeping all the jnrs hydrated and taking care of their welfare; Ash and zhiyu, for being ever ready to mingle with the jnrs and to take charge whenever i'm not ard; Grace, for helping me out in the admin prospects of the camp and welfare... this camp would not be a success without anyone of u... all of u are essential to Phyxion and i realli realli appreciate your help this year...
next, to all my SA, stuart, darren, zhuohao, qinglong, alvin, shupei, junming, pravin, locuelle, yonghui... all of u had help mi alot in the camp whenever u can, esp zhuohao and qinglong who's the group photographers, allowing the jnrs to have their memories abt this camp, and stuart, who stick with us thruout the whole duration of the camp...and helping out to keep the group united... even though they are some clashes during the camp, but we are all part of the phedra, pyrius and phyxion gang.. so no hard feelings eh..
and last of all...to all my veri veri dear jnrs... mark, chiawei, jing xi, guomin, lichuan, steph, jasmine, angela, shuyu, siqi, yanting, qiaoqing, yiping, joleen...thanks for all the effort that u all put in during the camp... be it in leading, in cheering, in encouraging, in supporting, in the running and the never giving up... you all make it happened...and i'm damn proud to be the CGL of phyxion and u guys and gals... the spirit that u showed was tremendous... and i reallly hope that u all can keep it up eh...though u all not much of a drinker.. as long as got outings do go ahead and jio us go too hor...dun ignore us leiz...haa..but i think u all wunt one la...
okiez..sch starting soon too..work hard and enjoy ur life at hall 8 yeah... good luck n god bless...
phyxion~ phyxion...phyxion~!!!
8:58 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
FOC before thots
mmm...foc tml le...been thru a pre camp..not tt fun..letz hope foc will be fun...or hope i can make it fun...not fun for mi nvm...but muz be fun for freshie...haiz....attendance is a probz... oh well..gotta sort it out...kinda feeling stressed up..but argh.. wateva...wat will be will be...
6:04 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
facts and myths abt drinking...
guess wat..after the SP nite bash at newsroom bar...i realised something... drinking can indeed make ppl reveal their true inner thoughts... at first glance...there was like so many happy people..having their drinks, dancing wildly to the music, enjoying the company of fellow OG ppl... but den..when the effects of alcohol sets in, ppl start to reveal their true thoughts...
i never knew that there was so many underlying things that had happened...indeed..most of them were personal but mabbe cuz i'm a fellow drinker...i gotten to know quite a few stuffz.. mabbe the mood was right for drinking n getting drunk...and mabbe getting drunk was the ideal thing to do in such a situation... getting drunk would juz make u lose consciousness, granting u peaceful nite to sleep in without being tormented by the problems that u faced...no doubt..it gives u something extra...a major hangover ...but i guess tt is a little price to pay for a good nite sleep...
and one more thing.. i realise tt ppl get drunk more easily when they are troubled... got ppl get drunk even when happy..but the state of drunkardness is more easily achieved when u are troubled..dun believe...try it...
Cravings: NIL
Desires : NIL
Philosophy: in the midst of darkness, she who holds the light will be ur beacon...
4:13 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
mmmm..blackie...
mmm...2 daes of camp has passed..todae is the 3rd daes le...and i'm totalli burnt from being out in the sun...yest sentosa was a killer...the bright beastly sun beat down unmercilessly on us who were playing beach games in sntosa...frickin hot..i would sae..
mmm..this year camp was abit sad...not many chio bu...but at least my group ppl are still quite happening...but overall the camp mood is not as high as last year...guess steps have to be taken liaoz... wonder how did yest fright nite goes...haah...hope tt everything goes well..so much effort put in...if buang...abit the sad...
todae pool games le...after which is the performance...hahah..pool games...another time to tan i guess...later shall see how..lol....
10:22 AM
Monday, July 04, 2005
drunk mood test...
You seem to be trying to sweep aside the situations (and maybe the people) that you feel are standing in your way. You are impulsive and apt to follow these impulses seeking to be involved in special or exciting happenings. In this way you hope to deaden the intensity of your conflicts, but your impulsive behavior is leading you to take some unnecessary risks. Back down a little and remember 'more haste - less speed'.
You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
here to take the test
http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm
1:55 AM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
drunk is how i shuld be...
mmm....am drinking after a day of shopping...went for a whole dae of activities frm morning til now...
early morning wake up went down to suntec city fer k-lunch...mmm...todae ktv session was rather wierd...was not realli in the mood... mabbe itz the flu that i'm having...mabbe itz the feeling...but somehow...i juz cannot be high... tried singing high tempo songs...but din work...the oni songs tt realli gotten in touch with mi are the sad songs... mmm... am i sad? am kinda lost at this juncture...
next was a guys shopping spree...went down to sim lim to look at gadgets...been wanting to buy a dvd burner...so off i go...walk ard to buy one... and promptly decided on a benq one...but when i connect it juz now..the installation disc dun seem to work..perhaps itz my lappy ba...dunno.. shall try againz next week..
den which us guys ie: dan, gan, mi , hao went down to orchard...yesh..orchard...fer a guy tt din went orchard much...i've been going down there nowadaes pretty much....not tt i realli enjoy myself...but seems like most ppl like to go down there to shop...so oh well...go lor.... went down there to buy a pair of board shorts... cost mi 68 bucks...think my mom will kill mi if she knew..hahaha..but oh well..take it as a investment ba... after tt den walk ard some more..before ending with a dinner at marche... dinner was a ok affair.... long time din eat le...finalli realise why...cuz itz realli not tt nice ba...but oh well..good change...
okiez..shall go back to drinking..starting to sober up...and tt's definitely not a good sign...at least not fer tonite...
Cravings: Forever drunk
Desires : Forget everything
Philosophy: drink ur way to a good nite sleep...
11:01 PM
