A strangled smile fell from your face It kills me that I hurt you this way The worst part is that I didn't even know Now there's a million reasons for you to go But if you can find a reason to stay
I'll do whatever it takes To turn this around I know what's at stake I know that I've let you down And if you give me a chance Believe that I can change I'll keep us together whatever it takes
She said "If we're gonna make this work You gotta let me inside even though it hurts Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see" She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"
I'll do whatever it takes To turn this around I know what's at stake I know that I've let you down And if you give me a chance And give me a break I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better
But remember the time I told you the way that I felt That I'd be lost without you and never find myself Let's hold onto each other above everything else Start over, start over
I'll do whatever it takes To turn this around I know what's at stake I know I've let you down And if you give me a chance and believe that I can change I'll keep us together whatever it takes
slowly loving lifehouse more and more...at least their old songs...
Blind
I was young but I wasn't naive I watched helpless as she turned around to leave and still I have the pain I have to carry a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried after all this time I never thought we'd be here never thought we'd be here when my love for you was blind but I couldn't make you see it couldn't make you see it that I loved you more than you'll ever know a part of me died when I let you go I would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like is was before but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor after all this time I never thought we'd be here never thought we'd be here when my love for you was blind but I couldn't make you see it couldn't make you see it that I loved you more than you'll ever know a part of me died when I let you go after all this time would you ever wanna leave it maybe you could not believe it that my love for you was blind but I couldn't make you see it couldn't make you see it that I loved you more than you will ever know a part of me died when I let you go and I loved you more than you'll ever know a part of me dies when I let you go
I hope you're doing fine out there without me Cause I'm not doing so good without you The things I thought you'd never know about me Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years? Guess I only see the truth through all this fear, And living without you?
And everything I had in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me. Just as long as I have you, Right here by me.
I can't take another day without you Cause baby, I could never make it on my own I've been waiting so long, just to hold you And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can't always find the words to say But everything I've ever known gets swept away Inside of your love
And everything I had in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me. Just as long as I have you, Right here by me.
As the days grow long I see That time is standing still for me When you?re not here
Sorry I can't always find the words to say Everything I've ever known gets swept away Inside of your love
And everything I had in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me. Just as long as I have you, Right here by me.
And everything I had in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me. Just as long as I have you, Right here by me.
there are times when i can only watch ppl pass me by... there are times when i reach out and get no help... there are times when i shout and i hear nothing... there are times when i feel like i could die... there are times when i'm up on the skies... there are times when i'm down on the floor... there are times when i simply can't do anything at all... there are times when i'm just shut outside the door...
had a pretty tiring day...guess it's after the sat nite party...which i drank abit too much... and had a hangover on sunday... luckily i managed to sleep it off as always...and survive none for the worse...
but todae was still pretty draining... work as always...the same... but i guess it being a monday...is especially tiring... ahh... i wanna watch my sweeny todd...
"nightingale tell me which way to fall, or should i give up at all..."
went down ikea today with my mom... bought a glass display cabinet for my gundam models... yesh...i'm veri into gundam...though i'm not a n otaku or aniting... i'm not obsessed with it...at least not yet... took a cab back from ikea... and the cab driver was like quite suprised that i still go shopping with my mom...
driver :" wah...u so old le still got go shopping with your mom one ar.." me: " why not.. i alwaes shop one mah..." driver :" nowadays youngsters grow up dun shop with their mom le.." me: "..."
i dun understand why u can't shop with you mom after you grow up... there's nothing wrong with that ba... or mabbe i'm juz family oriented ba.. ah well...
den met up boon n cy for dinner tonite...supposed to meet at 6.... was there at 6 cuz was thinking cy office nearby..so she wunt be late at least... but end up gotta wait for them til 730 cuz cy suddenly got last min work to settle... and hence...i waited in orchard for 1.5hrs alone... zzz... i know this is cuz of work commitments so there's no fingers pointing here... but my personal quirk is that i hate waiting... i mean if you agree on a timing... itz outta courtesy/respect for the people that you'll be there on time... somehow i think we all are entitled to that much respect from our frens.... i guess it's a human failing ba...somehow we all got too used to estimating time to reach certain destination.. we nvr consider the fact that we might met some unforeseen cicumstances... of course...i'm fine with waiting 5 to 10 mins... but more than that... it gets kinda irritating...
on a lighter note... who want's come my house ar? i realized that all my ntu frens nvr realli came to my house before even though it's juz a stone throw away...okiez..oni 2 of them did come over for dinner nia... cuz they are special... but the rest nvr came over before... mabbe 11 feb(mon) can come over for steamboat to celebrate cny or wat eh??? waddya guys think....? tag me if u hall pplz are interested... if not den nvm lor...not say my house veri big n nice oso...
"the simplest wishes are the hardest to fulfill..."
made a new banner... am kinda a sucker for the sunset and sea... tt's why my banner alwaes sunset and sea... ya...think old one like nicer though..mmm...nvm...plz tell mi if u all hate it... i'll revert it back...
met up with the army specs last nite... as alwaes, had a good laugh talking over the good ol' days back in 40sar... catching up on all the latest gossips... watching ah pui n cb qiu quarrel... just like old times... itz scary how fast time flies.... the last time i met up with nam and marcus they all were like a few years back...
went to catch 27 dresses after that... initialli i thot it was gonna be just another sappy romance show... but to my expectation... the show was quite funny... think because it's a sneak, so not many ppl were watching that show... but show was pretty good... peppered with quite a few good one-liners... not gonna spoil the show for u all... got time can give this show a watch ba... received my much belated xmas present from yp after that...got a rather cute coin pouch from BKK... thanks thanks!
and i think todae's gonna spend on gundam...3 colors for today...lotsa rinsing...drying...scrubbing and sanding... gonna prepare for my unicorn which's gonna come tml...
"it's just like knowing my fave love song was written for a sandwich..."
this is definitely one of my fave songs of all time... click it..enjoy it...
this time what I want is you there is no one else who can take your place this time you burn me with your eyes you see past all the lies you take it all away I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
I try to make my way to you but still I feel so lost I don't know what else I can do I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
don't give up on me yet don't forget who I am I know I'm not there yet but don't let me stay here alone
this time what I want is you there is no one else who can take your place I've seen enough and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
got this off a email... i think many of you have seen this before.. but just post it up...at least it gets you to think of positive things out of the negatives...
This is nice - finding positive out of every negative - which we don't always manage to do. I am thankful...
1. For the husband who snores all night, because he is at home asleep with me and not with someone else.
2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes, because that means she is at home & not on the streets.
3. For the taxes that I pay because it means that I am employed.
4. For the mess to clean after a party because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.
5. For the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat. 7. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning because it means I have a home.
9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot because it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with transportation.
10. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbours because it means that I can hear.
11. For the pile of laundry and ironing because it means I have clothes to wear.
13. For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am stilll alive.
14. For every favor that i was asked because it means i'm able to be of help.
15. For every sms that was received because it means other people still bothered about me.
"look beyond the horizon to see the big picture... look beyond yourself to see others beside you...."
1. trying to scream a silent scream 2. swear and try provoke the wall into hitting you 3. close your eyes and try to look thru your closed eyelids 4. reach and try to grab the stars 5. sit on a chair and spin yourself, then try and stand up to walk straight 6. punch the air until your hand hurts 7. try not to blink until your eyes tear 8. sleep upside down 9. think of a similar list of nonsensical things to do
"we dun alwaes have wat we want... but we must alwaes know wat we don't want..."
Another summer day Has come and gone away In Paris and Rome But I wanna go home Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by A million people I Still feel all alone I just wanna go home Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two "I'm fine baby, how are you?" Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough My words were cold and flat And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane Another sunny place I'm lucky I know But I wanna go home Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home I'm just too far from where you are I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life It's like I just stepped outside When everything was going right And I know just why you could not Come along with me But this was not your dream But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come And gone away And even Paris and Rome And I wanna go home Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by A million people I Still feel alone Oh, let me go home Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home I've had my run Baby, I'm done I gotta go home Let me go home It will be all right I'll be home tonight I'm coming back home
in this life... there are the haves...there are the have-nots... we learn to be thankful for wat we haves....and we often wanted wat we have-nots... and yet there are 2 set of thinkings that governed how ppl behave... some believe everything is pre-destined... wat u have and wat u dun have are determined by a higher power... and some believe that as long as u work hard enuf... want hard enuf... you can get wat u dun have... i'm not a full believer in either thinking... because if u think everything is pre-destined...u wunt be motivated anymore... u'll just be a lump of mud engage in passive thinking lamenting on things that u wunt have... but if u believe u can achieve wat u want by working hard... it sometimes ain't possible as there are things simply that's out of reach... it'll lead to greed...and greed will lead to uncontentment... so i preach... go for wat u think u can achieve....and it muz be a reasonable objective...and life will be worthwhile...
was out with my army men from my unit just now... these are the ppl that make the 2 yrs in army worthwhile...
frens that i know from hall make my uni life worthwhile...
my family makes my life worthwhile...
"i have almost everything...almost everything but..."
i seriously think i'm allergic to something...duno wat was it tt i ate...but feels abit short of breath...i dunwan be like mc king...argh... if aniting happen to mi..i ate meatball soup and hor fun....
woah...greed is a scary thing... it drives ppl to do things that you wunt normalli do...although some form of greed is good... at least it provides a motivation for you to push yourself to achieve more, to obtain more...but i realise that as a person have more and more material wants... more and more material desires manifest... tt accounts for my expenditure sia...damn... muz curb the buying urge...not all cheap things are worth buying...for combine together..they become veri expensive things....argh... no more buyings for this month...
"it's not always they have, so i want... it's i need...so i want..."
i hate weekends like this... no plans ahead... no activities ahead... 2 deaths just shook my world....ain't feeling too well oso...stomach been kinda funny... head kinda heavy... have been a tough week... and bloody cold weather too... i hate nites like this too... if only....
cleared my ff7 crisis core... watched AVP2 with my bro... but somehow...something just dun feel rite... i got this funny feeling at the pit of my stomach... and i wonder why....
